learn to be single and deal with my own loneliness

so…

i have certainly been up on my processing through things lately. i have been working weekly with my therapist which has helped..

and i have “had the talk” with him. i feel more secure.. and understanding of the way i feel. i am not lonely.. i just miss him.

so.. i say success.

If i went through and read my own entries.. i would conclude myself a depressed little gal..

maybe i am? So i set this goal so that I focus on myself while I am running through my emotions of a three year long relationship with an amazing fella which ended rather abruptly, and.. mysteriously.

I have focused on being with someone to fill my own voids, and I need to learn how to live with myself, instead of holding onto others so damn tightly. I realized I have pretty much been in a relationship since I was 16 years old. That’s about 8 years of always having someone to fall back on when I can’t cope for myself. so no more I say!

i will try.

but i can’t control myself around him. and it’s especially lovely to cuddle.. and be kissed, and be held. but i will give it a go for the singles.