Announce my intentions!

I just realized that I reached this challenge when I took a leap of faith and posted all my new goals on 43T. They’re exactly what I want in my life right now. There’s one goal that I haven’t posted yet, cause I don’t know how to phrase it but that’ll come soon.

After rereading “Tuesdays With Morrie”, by Mitch Albom, I was inspired to write out a list of things that I would regret not doing if the world ended tomorrow. These goals are now on my 43T list.

I was going to keep this list private because it was just that, private. And being an only child makes me hold things closer to my heart. But I thought of all the support and graciousness that I’ve received on this site and decided to put it out there to the Universe. It felt great when I finished adding these new goals onto my 43T list, like the sun coming out from behind a cloud.

I wrote these goals without much analyzing, so it means that they’re what I truly want and not what I think I need. And I got rid of lots of old goals that weren’t truly connected to me anymore.

This is an exciting fresh start to the almost beginning of a new year!

Need to re-focus and get back to doing this consciously. I do it all the time, just not always on the things that are truly good for me. So now I want to vividly focus on what I want. I’m very clear on this now, and it should be easy. It might be the sleep depravation lately that’s blurring my vision.

Tomorrow’s another day.

Sometimes I want to let be and let go of all these goals. Get off the to-do list. Veer from the paved track and sit on a veranda in Rome, sipping something decadent with a delicious book on my lap. How’s this for truthful?

I am and always will be someone who goes after goals with fierce focus. It’s the way I’m wired. But sometimes I want to pack up the self-improvement and search for that perfect olive in Spain. Muddy my shoes in the Spanish red earth, and stare up at the sun. No goals and nothing to go after.

Just be. Bee bee bee.

If this was my last week on this earth, I’d want to spend it by: travelling to somewhere sunny and warm, laughing with my friends and sharing all of it with J.

Thinking about my life in these finite moments makes it easy to see what’s most important to me.

Yes, true and strong intentions really do work. They really do! When I couldn’t reach my parents last night and was panicking over it, I made the intention for them to be healthy and happy. I felt it and saw them being healthy and happy together, and then this morning I spoke to my mom who confirmed it. I’m so happy and relieved.

Part of this goal is to allow things to happen to me, to accept them into my life. This is important. I’m great at knowing what I want and then going after it, but when it arrives at my doorstep I’m hesitant to open the door. It’s odd to me that I should be afraid of getting exactly what I ask for, what I want. So odd. I understood tonight that to truly be bold with my intentions in life I have to accept what I ask for with wide open arms. And that allowing and accepting are the same things.

A friend who’s read most of the ‘succeed in life’ self-help books told me that they all say the same things: have a positive attitude, visualize what you want and write it down. Something about committing our wishes in writing triggers the unconscious to take it seriously. He reminded me of how I’d written down something that I wanted years ago, which I’m now happily doing. I totally forgot that I wrote this out and was amazed at how easily it came true.

After this converstion, I was all excitement. I went home and wrote down all the things that I want. One of them was to have my writing assignment finish happily and easily, with everyone feeling good. This was a few days ago and I got a message this afternoon that my part in this project is complete and the client is happy with my work. I wasn’t expecting this to happen so quickly, I was sure it would drag on for another few weeks.

There’s amazing energy in purposefully intending for things to happen. I’m sure that I’m constantly willing things to happen to me unconsciously, and to do it consciously is an exciting way to live out my life with full control over what happens to me. This insight was a great gift from my friend. It makes me wonder what else I can do.

Wage Peace

Wage peace with your breath.

Breathe in firemen and rubble,
breathe out whole buildings and flocks of red wing blackbirds.

Breathe in terrorists
and breathe out sleeping children and freshly mown fields.

Breathe in confusion and breathe out maple trees.

Breathe in the fallen and breathe out lifelong friendships intact.

Wage peace with your listening: hearing sirens, pray loud.

Remember your tools: flower seeds, clothes pins, clean rivers.

Make soup.

Play music, memorize the words for thank you in three languages.

Learn to knit, and make a hat.

Think of chaos as dancing raspberries,
imagine grief
as the outbreath of beauty
or the gesture of fish.

Swim for the other side.

Wage peace.

Never has the world seemed so fresh and precious:

Have a cup of tea and rejoice.

Act as if armistice has already arrived.

Celebrate today.

wage peace – judyth hill – september 12, 2001

When I’m truly intending, I can feel a physical pull directly from my heart to where I want to go. And where I want to go can be a place, a future destination or an experience. It feels like a solid knowing that has no room for doubts. I love this feeling! Sometimes I try to hard for it, so I’m learning to let it flow. It’s also about suspending my doubts and fears.