stop trying to impress people I don't even like

I think i can finally tick this one off.
The last few days i’ve been struggling to decide on things, life decisions etc and i realised that for the first time in years i wasn’t thinking about impressing anyone! I was thinking about what i want.
I no longer feel the need to impress people, as i said in a previous entry… the people i try to impress will never be impressed or even if they are they’ll never show it.
I’m finally doing things for myself… bought bloody time too!

I’m having to change alot of things with me this year and slowly i’m beoming more confident with myself which is giving me the confidence to trust myself and do/say what i want not what others want, when i’m thinking about things like playing the keyboard i don’t think ‘oh _ would be impressed!’ i enjoy myself instead and i feel so much better, not trying to do things for other people gives you freedom!

I knew this was going to be a hard goal for me but this is worse! I start doing or saying things then later on think “why did i do that? they don’t care!” I’m impossible, especially as the people i try to impress are not worth it, they’ll never be impressed. I need to try impressing myself rather than others but i put myself down so much it’s a struggle to do what i want, i keep trying to keep everyone around me happy and then get annoyed when i don’t achieve it.

It doesn’t work out well. The only person who really gets dissappointed by you trying to impress people you don’t like is yourself. Mainly because you are lying to yourself about your feelings. You don’t have to be mean, but you can find somebody else to talk to, do things for, or spend time with. Why try and impress anyone I have to ask after having tried to impress a lot of people for a long time? I was the only one who was dissappointed in the end, because I couldn’t keep up the facade. You can’t make everyone happy so why not try to make the one person who matters most happy, Yourself.

Impressing people is trying to be something you’re not.
Once you start doing what YOU want to do, think how YOU want to think and not give into what others believe to be right.
I don’t give into the Indian/wallabee/sperry shoe fad.
And I didn’t own a polo in EVERY color.
Wow.
I try to wear what I like, and listen to what appeals and think what makes sense.

I don’t want to be less than myself for someone else!

I’m doing a lot better now, but I still think I need work

It’s not worth wasting my time impressing people who don’t even appreciate anything you do. All they do is put you down so they will look more powerful or in control of you! I need to be in control of myself and not base what I do on how I can impress such thick people!!

Its difficult to do this but be yourself when confronted by such people.

i want them to like me so i can reject them but i dont like them.. does that make any sence to anyone?? its like a highschool thing ive been done with highschool a year now but its like that in clubs or a grocery store even …