stop shopping

Woohoo! I need all the encouragement I can give myself for this goal because this is really tough for me. So YAY for 8 hours with no shopping or online “window shopping! I can do this!

Because I really want to shop. Shopping is my coping mechanism when I’m feeling stressed, frustrated, lonely…you name it and I use it as an excuse to shop. I’ll start by researching my purchases online, sometimes spending way more time than I have…Then I may go to the store and spend more money than I have. It’s a vicious cycle because spending all that time and money on shopping makes me more stressed out than I was before. Often I’ll go and return the things I buy simply because I can’t afford them and I associate so much guilt with them that I don’t want them anymore. I think breaking this habit will benefit me immensely in every aspect of my life. The ironic thing is that I think what I’m craving is simplicity! That may not make sense, but achieving more simplicity in a particular aspect of my life is the only thing that has made me stop shopping for things pertaining to that aspect. I also think I use shopping to express myself. I have always loved having creative pursuits…creative writing, drawing, painting, and dancing, and I haven’t done any of that in as long as I can remember. It’s going to be really difficult, but I think that what I need to do in order to acheive this goal is to stop cold-turkey. Because every time I give in to the urge, I feed it and make it stronger. Hopefully, just like I did with my “quit drinking” goal, over time, I’ll be able to distance myself from the irrational voice that urges me to make bad choices, and in the mean time, I’ll fulfill my desires for simplicity and creative expression in healthier, truly fulfilling ways.

I’ve realized that all the things I purchace a wants and not a need. My wants were starting to get really ridiculous! So now I let my wants marinate for awhile to see if I really want it. Plus washing and putting away all those damn close where starting to drive me crazy!

Ok. I need help. I just bought another pair of shoes! Red patent leather mary janes from 9West. I couldn’t help it. They were my size.

I also bought 2 pants jackets, a skirt, 2 pairs of tights, and a shrug at Daffy’s for almost $100.

2 things to say in my defense:
1 – I went into the store to buy a trench coat b/c I desperately need one. That’s when I saw the other stuff.
2 – In the last 6 weeks, I’ve been wearing the same thing over and over. It’s true! It’s too the point that I can’t stand getting dressed. I’ve only purchased 3-5 shirts since September. Oh yeah, i bought two pairs of pants (but I just got those tailored the other day so they have never been worn)

Also, included in my wardrobe is a skirt and a pair of pants that I got for free. Someone was throwing them out. I’m resourceful so I deserve to treat myself.

Included in my wardrobe are items from almost 10 years ago.

Anyway, what I have been buying are shoes. Lots of shoes. I have a pavlovian response to any cute shoe that I find in my size, which is a very small size and is rare.

Anyway, what’s done is done. I feel horrible about it. Truly. The only thing I can think to do is waitress this month even though I had wanted to give that up.

I’m sure I’ll re-visit this one but for now I’ve awakened to my reality.

My job is ending, I’m going away and still I cannot stop shopping! My goal should really be to not walk into any stores because I’m just finding so much stuff that I like for great prices. Three dresses, one jacket and five tops for $150. But that’s $150 I didn’t have.

I should cut myself a little slack because I was looking for a few pretty dresses to take with me. However, that’s not what I bought. On the positive side, I bought a vintage wool black sheath dress by Andrea Jovine for FIVE DOLLARS! Yeah baby!

Is there any way to stop me thinking of buying new things while i still got loads of tagged new clothes in my wardrobe? i already got what i need, different colors,textures,materials of every single silhouette and style. Hmmmmmm…......but i continue to think of the grey boots and lalic flats on THAT shop…...

ok ok ok I give up on this goal i know i will never be able to quite shopping unless i get into therapy and that isnt going to happen any time soon so oh well

Hi my name is Amy and I am a freaking shopaholic..its worst cause i have a computer and i can shop on line …this is outta control I act like I am rich and I am not