love someone unselfishly

I’m very much attracted to this one person I’ve known for a long time and lately, I found out he reciprocates and we’re dating now.

It’s very early stages and it’s way too early to take this seriously, but I really want to make this work. But I’m afraid I’m too immature and new to this to make this work. I’m afraid of not being good enough for him. I’m afraid of holding him back somehow when he deserves the best. I’m afraid I might be subconsciously shallow and only like him because he’s cute. I’m afraid he might get tired of me eventually. I’m afraid of us breaking up and never becoming friends again.

I’m afraid that I might use this relationship to only serve myself and my needs and forget to think of the best for him.

I’m afraid because I like him so much and I don’t want him to think any less of me if he gets to know me.

Wow, I guess by being afraid of so many things already, I’m already being selfish!

I feel kind of funny, because when I first listed this as a “to do” item, I was the only person doing it. And now there’s five.

Tee hee. I feel proud of myself for possible having inspired 4 other people to do this. It’s definitely something worth doing, I think.

I’ve done this a couple of times and it did me no good in terms of relationships, but in terms of family this is something i try not to overlook.