improve my attendance at school

Its been a while since I posted but the missing school problem continues.

My first goal is to go to school for 3 weeks straight. 15 Straight Days.

Alright, so.
School has gotten so much better. Honestly, I love school. I don’t like missing school.
It’s been so great having Courtney there. And Alicaia and Gina too. At first I thought they were annoying, but Alicias actually pretty cool. Over the past couple of weeks we’ve gotten to be better friends. The boys are still the boys. Mike came back at the begining of the year. Dennis dropped out though. Tiffany comes in sometimes, like how I used to be. But, yeah. I’ve only missed like. 4 days on my first quarter report card. I was legit sick those or had a doctors appointment. And that’s so good! Normally I’d have legit 15-20. Creative Writing didn’t work out, I had a major anxiety attack when they asked me to write a question on what I thought writing was about or something. So I switched into sociology, and honestly I love that class. World Cultures is awesome as well. Ceramics is fun too. In those classes I had B+ to A on my first report card which is pretty sweet. Hopefully midterms will go well. I am also switching into an academic english class after midterms! =] It is small, only 15 or 17 kids or something. I am really proud of myself for doing so well. I knew that if I made it to christmas break, I’d be okay for the rest of the year, and I’m 100% sure I’ll be good through this year and next.

School starts on the 4th!
This year will be different in quite a few ways.

Last year, I went to school on an abreviated schedule. I had 7 classes instead of the normal 8. Every other day, I was to be at school at 8:45. [On that day, I had 3 classes.] Of course, I made it in AROUND there.
I was also in the alternative room for all of my classes last year. I did my school work as it needed to be done normally, but there was some flexibility then as to when I did what.
& last but not least, the alt room was Dennis, Asa, Cory, Mike, and myself.

This year, I’m going to school on a normal schedule. 4 classes one day, the other 4 the next.
I’m in the alternative room for 5 classes this year. For normal classes, I’ll be doing Ceramics to get my 2nd art credit, and World Cultures and Religions as well as Creative Writing for electives. I think three classes is a good amount, considering my anxiety problem, and the fact that I haven’t been the best at going to school. We’ve also made a deal that if I do well in those classes, and my attendance is up, I can transfer into an academic English class after 1st quarter, which seems quite fair to me, and I hope I’m able to do. [Last year, I started in Honors English, and with my anxiety being at an all time worst and missing so much school, I just couldn’t catch up, I ahd to switch out of it.]
& finally, last year, it was just me and the guys I had known since freshman year, with the exception of Mike. Who, was still cool in a weird way. But it’s just, they can be rude, and stupid, but it’s just like, I don’t know. I have a fondness for them. Well, now, girls are going to be the majority of the room! That’s with those four boys, and another kid James. So, six girls? =/ I know who was considered for the room. One of the girls is someone who I’d consider a friend, so I’m kinda happy, but not since it’s change, and such. I mean, once it happens, I’m sure I’ll be okay with it. The alt room was different my freshman year! And a bit sophmore year, but I wasn’t really THERE that much, you know? I’m trying to really push myself to go as much as I can, so I want it to be a place I’ll enjoy to be. And it’s the boys last year, so however this year goes, will effect next year. Like, how the room is, you know? I mean, maybe next year could start new, but. shrugs!

My attendance has improved drasticly for me. Compared to last year, missing the last quarter of school.
Compared to not being able to do a full week of school, ever basicly?
It’s not perfect, it’s not near anyone else standards, & it was on an abrviated schedual, but it was AMAZING for me, and I am damn proud of it. =]

& I’m pretty sure I can keep this up next year if I can get through the first month or two.

The year is over and I guess I will postpone this till next year and hope to improve.

My Results:
I have missed 27 days
I have been tardy 19 times
I have left early 6 times

Almost everyday I wake up thinking “I really don’t want to go today.” but somehow I push through and still go. I have been going to school for about 2 straight weeks which doesn’t seem much to some people but its a big accomplishment for me. Things are changing and my mind is in the right place. I have never had higher ambitions or have been as motivated as I am right now.

So, it went bad. [I missed a few days, and wasn’t allowed to go because of some stuff so I needed an okay from my doctor.]
But then I went back Wednesday or Thursday last week?
And have been everyday since.
No, “Maybe I won’t go.” thoughts. And basicly no stress or overtiredness.

I have learned that the reason I miss so much is from being stressed. This is probably where my stomach problems come from as well. We are so driven to succeed in School from Preschool. I used to be an excellent student but currently am probably one of the worst as of right now.

These are the reasons why I miss so many days of School:
1. I challenged the system, not cooperate with it.
2. I started focusing on career and not academics.
3. I procrastinate and do my work last minute.
4. I don’t sleep enough.

I have missed 22 days
I have been tardy 13 times
I have left early 6 times

I need to change and I am trying right now.

Last time I posted was last month and since then I missed 5 more days which brings me to 16. Some days school just feels pointless and other days I just feel sick. I believe a key to this might be to connect yourself to the outside world as much as possible while in school. I am going to subscribe to some Twitter feeds and get updates SMS. Hopefully it helps a bit.

Oh man.
I went to bed at 12.
Woke up at 7. With difficulty.
Went back to bed.
AND SLEPT TIL 2:30.
I think it’s my meds.
25 of serequel used to knock me out.
Now I’m on 400.
So, I missed school today.
Have to go no problem the nexxt few days because of MCAS.
But, yeah.
I think I need to talk to my doctor about it.