feel sexy again

think i was fat and ugly

but now I have put on heaps of weight I realise how pretty and skinny I used to be :(

I want to be proud of my body

It’s amazing what even just a small amount of weight loss, a new haircut, and some new clothes can do to one’s self-confidence.

In looking at myself in the mirror as of late, I’ve actually been saying to myself “I look GOOD.”

And I feel the same way.

And my wife agrees.

So, I can mark this as “complete.”

I’m sure there are more things I can do to continue on this path, and I think I will make sure that I do them. I’d hate to fall back into old habits at this point . . .

I’ve lost a little weight over the last few weeks, and as mentioned endlessly in previous posts elsewhere, I’ve gotten a new haircut. Both of these have not gone unnoticed by my wife, who has complimented me on the weight loss and has pronounced that the haircut looks “hot.” And, a few female co-workers of mine have paid the same compliments to me about the haircut and have lamented that their own spouses haven’t really paid much attention to their appearance as of late.

I haven’t felt this good about myself in ages, and, narcissist that I am (or at least that I’m becoming), I find myself looking in the mirror at myself now and realizing that perhaps they’re all right about this, which boosts the self-confidence, and thus, the whole “feeling sexy” thing.

my life changed. She captured her view of me on film… and in the first time in over a year, I felt beautiful, happy to be myself… not saying it would work for everyone, but glam it up, take some hot pictures, and wear something you’d never dare – out – with a smile, and then look around, I bet more than one person will notice the beauty you radiate through self confidence

It hasn’t gone along as far as I would have liked this to (real life and fatherhood getting in the way and all), but I am feeling a bit better about myself these days, and thus, I guess, a bit “sexier.”

I think actually having “done the deed” recently has helped out on this as well.

I’m not quite ready to mark this off my list as “complete” just yet, but at least I’m moving forward on this now . . .

I think this is actually something that my wife and I will be doing together once the baby comes, and it actually ties into my goal of self-confidence and weight loss as well.

The pregnancy has been an amazing journey, but in terms of how it has made both of us feel physically at different times, it’s been a bit taxing. Obviously my wife has gained weight, and I’ve also gained during this time as well (perhaps sympathetically, also because of some other factors). She’s tired, and sex has been one of the last things on either of our minds. We miss it. We miss the rush, we miss the connection, and we miss just the whole feeling of sexiness.

I’ll be getting my wife a gift certificate for a spa package once she feels she’s ready or she needs a break. I want her to feel good about herself again. I’m in the process of beginning to lose weight again—I want to feel good about myself. I’m going to make sure we set aside time for ourselves to be together, to be in love, and to make love with no distractions.

The last few days/weeks I’ve found myself flirting more (mostly with baristas at Starbucks). It’s done wonders for my self-confidence and has made me feel like “I still have it.” That’s really been helping with this goal. I’ve also either done (new haircut) or will be doing a few other physical transformations to make me feel better about myself and more attractive for when my wife is ready.

Hmmm-feel sexy again, become more romantic, improve my self-confidence, lose weight-it all ties together!

but today, somebody made me feel special. I was a the check-out of the supermarket. The old man behind me noticed I bought some cat food. He showed me the kidneys he was buying for his four old cats. It reminded me of my great grandmother who always cooked for the dog. Well, people just did in those days, long before tins and dried pre-packed junk we feed our animals. (I’m guilty) Anyway, the man grabbed my arm and kept on talking to me. Looking in my eyes. He was slightly smaller than me so he was looking up. All of a sudden he said, god, you are so beautiful !! I went : WHAT ? I really don’t feel like that at all. But no, he insisted I really was and that my boyfriend was a lucky man. He was a character I can tell you. He was Italian and when I mentioned I am Belgian, he started going on in French about cycling and stuff… I thought I would LOVE to take pictures of him and his cats, but I didn’t ask and I just left. NOT ceasing another opportunity.

Buy anyway, he made an impact on me and made me happy for a moment. And I’m sharing it now with whoever ends up reading this, so that counts too…

Looked in the mirror when I got back to check what it is he saw..

and soon!