be beautiful inside and out

I feel pretty on the outside when I am wearing a nice outfit and my hair is done nicely, but how will I know when I am beautiful inside? Am I the judge of that or are other people?

i know everyone is beautiful (inside and out). but it just doesn’t sink into my system. someone said that you can’t give what you don’t have. I agree. I couldn’t show people their own beauty or the beauty of something if I don’t see the beauty in me.

I went to a party and had a crush on a very cute boy – he is so handsome that I couldn’t take my eyes away from him.

I realized two things about myself:
1. The power of beauty
2. My vulnerability and fear of losing control

I am not sure if being beautiful is a curse or a bless… but I think it disturbed my peaceful boring life.

“Adversity introduces a man to himself.”

Such a great quote and fits perfectly with me right now.

Over the last few weeks I feel like I have to come to a head with a lot of things in my life. Why I do the things I do, the friends I make, the clothes I buy, a lot of the decession I have made, relationships that didnt work.

All, because I simply have not been happy with my life.

I wasnt happy with my life, simply because I didnt like who I am. Which is completely silly, I have all the reasons in the world to love me. I have to learn this.

Im 34, and I just discovered this. My first step on this journey.

“Adversity introduces a man to himself.” Its like Im saying hello to myself and who I really am for the first time.

has to do with your frame of mind. I initially put this goal down because I was not feeling well about my sad situation with my profession. (I work as a speech-language pathologist and I appear to hate it when I am at work). I needed to feel something completely different from what I was feeling at that moment. So far, I don’t have any particular ways of helping myself feel better inside and out. I guess just knowing that all is well on the inside will help eventually on the outside.

TO ME ITS NOT A GOAL. IT JUST IS. EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL A LOT OF PEOPLE JUST DON’T SEE IT OR REALIZE IT OR BELIEVE IT, EVEN WHEN OTHER PEOPLE TELL THEM. IT IS NOT SOMETHING LIKE A GOAL TO CHECK OFF, BUT MROE A FRAME OF MIND AND HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF. EVEN DOING SMALL THINGS LIKE POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT AND AFFIRMATIONS DON’T WORK, MAYBE FOR SOME. DONT WORK FOR ME BECAUSE I FEEL I AM JUST SPILLING OUT LINES. IT TAKES WORK, I DONT KNOW EXACTLY WHAT DOES IT, BUT THERE COMES A TIME IN EVERY PERSONS LIFE AT LEAST I THINK WHERE THEY REALIZE JUST HOW BEAUTIFUL THEY ARE BOTH OUTSIDE AND INSIDE. USUALLY SOMONE FEELS BEAUTIFUL INSIDE BUT NOT OUTSIDE OR OUTSIDE BUT NOT INSIDE. I STRUGGLE WITH THE OUTSIDE PART. I GET TOLD BY MY PICTURES I AM BEAUTIFUL, BUT NOT REALLY IN LIFE I FEEL LIKE A BEAUTIFULLY FUNCTIONING PERSON LIKE THOSE HOT MODEL PEOPLE. BUT ITS ALL A FRAME OF MIND HOW YOU FEEL AND SEE YOURSELF.

Just to vent… part of my inner beautification project is self examination. Sometimes I take hard looks at myself and tear apart the pieces of what issue I’m looking at so that I can put it back together in a more effective way… a better way to help me grow and change as a person. I have a friend that can’t seem to understand that and swears that I don’t feel good about myself just because I point out something that I don’t like.

Argh!I feel fine about myself. Can I not do a little self evaluation and improvement without you thinking that I’m ready to jump off of a bridge???

That just drives me nuts and I wanted to the world to know. :P

well i got the insidee part down packed for sure i mean i can’t find one flaw about my personality but i just need the outside part to be beautifull =/

I’m super glad I took this course! Aerobic Dance is amazing! It’s so much fun and I feel like I’m really getting a work out. Right now my problem is my poor eating habits because the quarterdeck sucks and i like chocolate too much. I also would like to do a little more running at the SAC and some more swimming. Hopefully I can take up snowboarding or ice skating and be somewhat successful! But when do I have the time? I need to spend less time w/ Greg and carve out time for some hobbies of my own.

What about beauty on the inside? I haven’t done much spiritually since I’ve been up here. Haven’t played the piano much, but I’ve been writing when I get really worked up about something I can’t get off my mind. Specifically guy problems. It isn’t always best to talk things out, sometimes it’s better to think things out on paper to find peace.

...to think so is it? I think I am a good person and that I’m beautiful. Not the most beautiful inside or out, but beautiful none the less!