make 2008 MY year of victory !

wow! 2008 really was my year of victory!! i let others in, i stopped lying to myself. i started to feel safe. i celebrated non stressful holidays and i was NOT afraid to change and do things differently. wow….. 2008 was really special for me because it was a year of a lot of firsts that ill always remember. and it was the year that i never thought would actually HAPPPEN or COME TO FRUITATION. there are somethings that were great in 2008 that did not carry over to the next year, but that is okay, it was a learning experience. both things i did not expect to end. but i am so so grateful. wow—truly, anythign is possible with God, and belief. 2008 WAS my year of voctory because i really didnt think it would happen. and the last day of the year … really was great. it was nice to get away from old habits and old people. wonderful!

i think this was some time in november, but i don’t remember: i did the first pushup of my life. (: i’ve never been able to do one until this basketball season.

That is enough of a Victory for me.

So I haven’t been on 43things.com much this year. I have had to take a step back from many areas in my life in order to try to gain some clarity. 2008 has been a year of victory in my health. I have finally started taking steps to lose weight. I had gained back all the weight I had lost in 2005 plus more (much of which seems impenetrable at times). Though my progress is slow I am at the stage now where exercise is becoming a habit (this is a victory in itself). What I need to work on now is keeping myself motivated.

like, BAM !

^{that’s a 97% – heck yes ! oh, and for the record, there were harder problems than those easy ones on the front. (:}

i had all almost all a’s on my interim report. i had a b in pseo precalculus, but the teacher didn’t have very many grades in yet. also, the time schedule is different because it’s a college class, so the teacher didn’t have all of our grades in yet. i had a d in chemistry because i had an orthodontist appointment the day that our teachers had to have grades entered. we had a chemistry test that day, so my teacher put a zero out of 100 in for me. but now it’s an a and the pseo precalc grade is pretty close to an a. (: i think it will go up when he enters our midterm grades in because i did really well on that.

i asked a boy to homecoming today. scary.

i answer to myself only
i am livng life for me
i am making money and using it wisely. could be mroe wisely, but sill wisely
i am living on my own
i am punctual
i accept and love myself
i have a great work ethic
i am in touch with my passions
i have been open to new experiences
i undertand more what it means to be a woman i have been introuced to this
i like that i am a woman
i live in a state of gratitude
i use affirmative words
i have moved forward
i no longer hsve the gigantic intimacy issues of before. the walls hsve been coming down. i am open

gonna check this off. This year has been ok, I got a Job I like, I won Good Charlotte Tickets which ok for most/some of you isn’t a big deal, but to me it’s huge I never win anything and Good Charlotte is like one of my favorites. Got closer to my friend and her kids, almost died in a car accident really makes you lucky to be alive. So the year isn’t done yet and I may have another entry befor the year is over but, for now I’m done with this.

.living situation
.balance
.peace
.love
.normal moments
.learn new things
.job
.writing
.acting
.being a better friend
.accepting myself
.healing
.open and ready for new thigns
.ready to learn