Understand and accept this change

This is me, moving on.

Life is not always what we expect, but it is always something special to be enjoyed. I refuse to waste my time on negative emotional energy about this issue any longer. I am putting this behind me, but with a clearer understanding of my boundary conditions.

It seems I must assume that all I’ve built since 7/21 and my “enlightenment” from a writing perspective, must be cast aside. I need to start again, from the beginning, and rebuild my writing world around a new center, consistent with a person of my age and position.

Well, I did it once. I guess I’ll just have to do it again. At least this time I know it can be done.

This is me, accepting the change. Wish me luck.

I’m just going to move past it.

sigh

No, I’m not going to tell you what happened. I can’t. Love to, but can’t.

But as many of you here have told me and each other before, what something bad happens that kills your ability to write, the only thing to do is to write your way through it.

So I’ve started writing in my journal again, and now I’m going to start posting, and may not have much to say, but I have this intuition that says if I keep “talking” long enough, all the detritus will flush clear of the system, and I’ll be able to write meaningfully again.

sigh

So here’s trying to write through it.

Understand? yes I understand the change. Accept? That will have to come with time, right?

I feel like I’m writing in code. Ugh.

sigh

Ok, shake it off, and start posting, dammit!

Hey, all. I know you were worried; sorry about the absence.

I’m back now, but not really ready to process all the things that are going through my head and my life right now. But I wanted to let everyone know that I am alive, and I’ll be back in force soon.

I also wanted to let people know that I will be deleting some of my posts and comments over the next few days. I mean no offense by this, but simply need to make sure my playful attitude is not misconstrued as misconduct by readers of this site.

always yours,

Dave

Fellow 43T’ers,

I desperately want to get your help and advice on my current situation, and help to understand and accept this change that has occurred in my personal situation. But now is, probably, not the time.

Instead, I’m going to take a 43T break until I’m able to think rationally again. I will miss you all, but I promise I will be back soon.

Yours,

Dave