I want to graduate with honors.

Semester started again and I kind of feel like a hamster. I got off the wheel stuffed some food in my mouth then got right back on. The break was entirely too short. The break was just long enough for me to get my house clean. Which was cool. One day I sat in my living room and looked to my left and it was clean I looked to my right and…it was clean. I went to the bathroom and it was clean. It was SO AWESOME.

Not as nervous about this semester. I think I just stressesd myself out because I was REALLY REALLY hoping to get a 4.0 two semesters in a row. I haven’t been able to accomplish that yet but I do keep trying.

This semester I am taking World Lit 2, Public Speaking, PTK honors seminar, Trial practice and litigation, and Torts. The World lit 2 seems easier this semester than what I needed to do for lit one. Public Speaking is going ot be a breeze as long as I put some effort into it. The PTK is going to be a bitch. It is only one credit but for it to count as an honors component I have to get a B in it and 70 percent of the grade is a paper.

Granted the paper is between four and six pages long. Which really isn’t that long at all. That lenght is restrictive because you can’t go into any real depth. You purposefully have to skim the top of a subject to answer and kind of question. Still fricking 70 percent. and the other thirty percent comes from weekly homework andclass discussion. They are making us put a name card up in front of us so they can keep track of which one of us makes an intellegent comment.

It is probally going to be a lot of crazy stress. I wanted to do the World lit class with an honors component as well but I think I have to be reasonable. It is just not going to happen.

I just tell myself I CAN DO IT! I CAN DO IT!

Christmas break is almost over and I’m going back to work tomorrow at the college. I didn’t make the Presidents list this last semester. I got a B in my World lit class. Stupid world lit. I did ok though. i am so not even looking ofrward to this semester. i just want to get it done.

I got inducted into the national honor society for two year institutions a few weeks back. It was a real big day for me it. I finally made it. Phi Theta Kappa was one of the goals I set for myself when I went back to school. My Mom, perfect sister and my brother all went to LFCC and none of them joined PTK. So I’m feeling pretty good about myself right now.

I also found out a few days ago that I got an A on my world lit midterm and the teacher even read one of my essay’s to the class so that was totally cool. Why is that ever time I decided to skip class the day the teacher decides to read something I wrote. I mean I’m never there when this happens to me. Either I’m out sick or I just flake out and don’t go to class.

I am having trouble with this semester and I don’t know what to do. i have so much homework and I don’t even want to do it right now. Granted it is almost six in the morning and I just got off work. I must find my motivation.

I find myself, free of the tryannny of the bookbag. All semester long I drag that darn thing around with me practically everywhere I go on the off chance I might want to study. Damn thing is heavier than my son, and now I have almost three glorious months where I don’t have to touch it. Believe me this is an AWESOME thing.

This semester went better than I had hoped I got straight A’s. That brings my cumulative GPA up to 3.6 something. I got honors mentions four times at this years awards ceremony,which I didn’t go to but I hear it was good. If I can find the 65 bucks I’m going to join the honor society.

All in all I think I am on my way to completing this goal. I think this semester showed me that I didn’t have to worry as much, to get good grades. (I would like to than Dr. Emma Grindley her stress class helped more than I gave it credit for.) Even thought the semester ended and I am totally looking forward to this summer, I am ready to go back in the Fall. Which is a huge imporvement from the spring.

I have another four semesters or so before I graduate with dual degree in both liberal arts and paralegal studies. SO I guess mission not accomplished but one step closer.

I so kicked that finals butt. Two classes down-three to go- as of right now I am pretty sure I have an A in both History and Stress managment. At five I have my ethics final and at seven I have my estate final and thursday I have my math final. So by Monday of next week I should know how my semester went.

The college that I really want to go to is within my reach. i found out that william and mary is actually cheaper than the four year college in the town I live in right now. The annual tuition cost for an in-state student at william and mary is about 5,000 dollars a year compared to the 21,090 dollars shenandoah costs. I only have to raise my GPA from a 3.5 to a 3.7 or 3.8. I can probally do that. I think I got to a point where I have gotten a little tired of the goals that I had set for myself in 2005. I needed to change my goal a little to give myself more incentive. So I have gotten myself to the point where I only have to do one assignment that is due on Tuesday anything else i do will just be to get ahead. Hooray for me.

I have decided not to give up on graduating with honors. Even though i have no homework due for classs tomorrow I am going to buckle down and spend two hours today doing school work that will be due in the future

My father died about a year ago and I miss him so much. He died without ever getting to see me achieve in school. He always believed in me. My father never made me feel like a loser. Not when I was a dancer, not when I dropped out of cllege with a 1.167, not when i had a crappy job at seven 11, not when I got pregnant and was living with him. He alway believed in me. When my little sister graduated college I was kinda bummed out during the ceremony and he leaned over and said “that will be you next and you will graduate suma cum laude.” He was wrong my briother graduated next but he made me feel better. I started school and he died before the end of my first semester back. I got a 4.0 that semester. Now I am half way through and i have a 3.5 GPA, I find myself just wanting to quit. I don’t want to put the effort into getting straight A’s but I feel like if I don’t get straight A’s it’s not even worth doing.