So, I want to feel like I can’t live without my boyfriend. I want to live with my boyfriend, I want to be proposed to and plan a wedding (eventually, of course). Sometimes I think I am in love with my current boyfriend this way, but I often get paranoid that he doesn’t feel the same way. We have only been dating for 6 months and I have two children. I am 29, he 30. Neither of us have been married before. If I am questioning the love, is it not there? Maybe it is just building. I do love mosts things about him….I want to feel vulnerable and crazy in love…. and be loved back. I need to stop withholding and just love like crazy even if I am not loved back. Who cares, it feels good to love even if it isn’t returned, right?
That’s it, I am going to give crazy, awesome love. If I give love, it will naturally come back to me and then I will be receiving it as well, which is really what I want, to give and recieve love unconditionally…...writing brings such clarity!
