remember my mom

I have finally gotten through the grieving process for the most part. I am happy to say that I remember her and will always old a special place for her in my mind.

I have been grieving my mother’s death. She died 2 years ago, this memorial day coming up. I haven’t gotten through the grieving process but I’ve been seeing a therapist and I was given a grief journal to help me through the grieving process. Believe it or not, you have to be taught to grieve naturally or you end up shoving all your feelings away and forgetting….but I remembered my mom more vividly tonight than I have since I can remember. I had laughing tears. I haven’t done that since she was alive. She could always cheer me when I was sad. She could always get me to laugh and to relieve my fears with laughter. I feel so good about this but I also realized tonight more than ever than I’ll never get to experience her joy ever again and it makes me so sad. It’s hard finding my own joy. I know someday I will.

My mother is descended from Castillian and Basque military and nobility.