i want to make myself clear

cant believe i couldnt sleep because of my heartbeats
its getting more exciting every second after i signed this form to go to england. i really dont know actually what is going to happen now because it was my excuse to get away these people who makes me suffer first but now the place im running is full of other people whom they hurt me most. the weird thing is i knew this from the beginning and my so called get away trip wasnt actually get away and honestly i dont expect anything from them but why my heartbeats doesnt let me sleep
how complicated could it be? besides nobody knows that im leaving from here and nobody knows that im going there , it is impossible to run people accidentally in the street

god i wish i could understand what s really happening in my mind
could someone please get inside my brain and tell me whats going on?

alex turner though have a piece of something overthere (in my mind)out of nowhere, i started to fantasizing about him .

i think we are going to meet somewhere in london maybe in an irish pub and then inevitably love at first side
and later on i started to study music business because being manager of alex requires some acknowledge of course basically im a pro so we end up like sharon and ozzy osbourne haha

mentoring and coaching may seen as an expensive friend who get paid to listen to you and help you to figure out work,family or friend problems but somehow it also helps to enlightened rest of us for to encourage self training for improve interpersonal communication skills.as i remember ,i am no stranger to the self help books, i would never expected one specific article might change my whole life. if anyone ever heard of “7 challenges ” could understand what i mean. listening ,acknowledging ,and understanding have been the very answer to all my problems. from now on making myself clear is not as hard as i used to struggle.