be the life of the party

i added this goal because this is kind of how my mom is. Everyone loves her and she just has one of those personalities everyone is attracted to.I would like to be more like that.

This one time, there was a band party. And it was sort of lame. And Katie was visiting. And we said, “You know what? We’re gonna get this party started.” So we did. Subsequently, everyone had a great time.

Is just to be happy, enthusiastic and never be afraid to laugh at yourself

I wonder if I have to be funny to do this…hmmm…

Just do it for yourself, and not be under the influence

My husband and I have a wonderful circle of friends. We basically all know one another from college, although most of our friends knew him first- I met most just before graduating, or just after (2000). They are definetly the very good natured, wild and crazy types. All of them, including my husband, did so much more living, so to speak, than I ever did. It eats away at me all the time. I have such regret for having the number of hang-ups I did during a time when it was actually ok to be crazy. I did some belated things, but can never really break out of my comfort zone easily. How can I be the crazy girl I have always dreamed of? The one who will be the life of the party? The one who get’s others to get naked and jump in the pool, etc? Instead of the girl who is so self-conscious, she trips over her tongue the moment she opens her mouth? How do you gather the confidence to do these things? I want to learn how to make it come naturally…

I moved to a new city, so that’s definatly making this goal more challenging. I can’t say I have any real friends here yet, but I went to a party last night and I’m hopeful about the future. I fear having to remember lots of new names since I’m so bad at it, but I went around the room and introduced myself to many of the people there and did a decent job remembering names and some details about them. I came out with some new myspace contacts and hopes for future invites.

Would this be the same as being a socialite? My most fun fantasies of how I wanted my life to be were of travelling all over and making fast friends and living it up at thier parties where everyone wanted to know my name. Would this be the right goal for me?