Be thin, fit, and happy

Okay, It’s been ages since I wrote this entry. I’m completely different now. I weight exactly the same though, even though I went up and down between then and now. 155. The weight I’ve been stuck at for quite some time. But my desire to reach 128 is a different goal.

I want to be able to keep up with my runner friends, and have great cardiovascular endurance, and awesome running and swimming speed. I want my pushup muscles back again. I used to be able to do 40 man style pushups, and now I can BARELY do 5. I want to be able to work out for 2 hours a day without completely passing out, and run for 45 minutes at an 8 minute mile pace and not die. I want to be physically fit.

But I don’t want to be super buff and muscley, cuz I’ve been like that before, and it sucked. I want long, lean, hard, gorgeous muscles. With thin, very UN-flabby arms and legs, and a slim, toned, and tight midsection. I want to be thin, but not unhealthy thin, thin on my standards. I want to not feel too heavy when I step on the scale, and not have boy that are 6’3 weigh only 10 pounds more than me (i’m 5’7). Speaking of that, I’d also like to GROW another inch, but that’s a little ridiculous.

Lastly, and MOST IMPORTANTLY, I want to be happy. I want my life to be fulfilling, and I want to be satisfied with my friends, my social and love lives, and my academics. I want to be genuinely excited about life, and actually WANT to get up in the morning because I have LIVING MY LIFE to look forward to. I love the person that I am, but I want to truly be happy, and that means loving my weight, my body, my friends and family, and the world around me.

This is the life I’m already starting to live, and I’m excited to keep living it.

right now i am unsatisfied with my life, and i want to slim down so that i will be happier about my body, and feel good enough about myself that people will like me more and I’ll have a better life overall.
Right now I weigh around 155, and my goal weight is somewhere between 135 and 125. So, I would like to lose 20-30 pounds. Enough weight that I can look in the mirror and be able to honestly say, “dayyuuum girl, you look mighty fine”
I want to be thin enough that I will look good in my clothes, and in pictures, and I want to be fit enough that I can do well at whatever physical activity i participate in, and I want to be happy with myself and my life.
I don’t really have a specific date I want to reach this goal by, but all I know is that I want to get to that point of the utmost thinness, fitness, and happiness as soon as I possibly can.