be a great mother

And she’s still as stubborn and energetic as always. She wears me out, but at least I’m not a couch potato. (Anymore!)

She’s been walking since ten months, but recently learned about walking backwards and is getting faster at running. She loves to run. She also is starting to say a couple of things. Still no mommy though :( She can say dance, and knows what a cat is. She also pointed to my nose the other day when I asked her if knew where it was!

She loves reading books, which I love. And she just loves to run and play. I actually almost can’t wait for winter to see her in the snow. And in a couple of weeks, a bee for Halloween.

And for the record, she LOVED her cake!

In just over a week, Annie will be one year! I’m so excited I could pee :P

She seems to be doing really well. She’s such a happy baby, and I consider myself lucky for that. She’s also really curious and smart. That’s good, but not always good. She is climbing on EVERYTHING, still eating whatever she can find, and banging things together. I know these are things all kids do, but I missed all of my other nieces and nephews at this age, so it’s really exciting for me.

Plus, she now has five teeth, which took FOREVER to come in. And we’re officially on table food. And I know she loves it, it’s just harder for me to come up with her meals now. But that’s okay.

My mom and I ordered her cake yesterday for her birthday party, which is still a couple of weeks away, that way we’re able to get everyone there, hopefully. And I know she loves cake, so I can’t wait to see her dig in!

I’m legal guardian to my littlest niece. I’ve had her for just over seven months. She just started walking and we’re working on talking. And her third tooth just popped in! I’m excited and overwhelmed and tired. But, I love her to death!

for stories about her trip to Spain and France, and write them in a notebook. It will be a good keepsake for her.

It is surely the little everyday things that make a great mother. I hope to give to my kids passion for life, comfort in knowing I love them, and the bravery to become themselves. I am very conscious of the fact that putting off being a great mother to earn the money we need to eat etc. can result in my being ready for them when they no longer need me. I will work to be a great mom now and always!

He came from me, why wouldn’t I want to give him my best, he is all I have… literally the air that I breath…

Don’t know of for me this is a SMART objective:
- Specific – yes
- Measurable – first i have to be a mother,and then become a great one
- Achievable – hope so!
- Realistic – yes (my mother did it)
- Time-framed – if not for me,by my biological clock

Don’t know about this one!

I feel so inadaquate some times …. I don’t know what to do but to keep doing anything I can. Its all so exhausting. specially since I have to be mom and dad (and work and have a personal life). I’m finding it harder and harder to fill both roles. since he is getting older and understands a lot more. sometimes when I hug him and say goodnight. my arms get stuck and I cant let go. I wish he understood me when I say “Im trying as hard as I can baby” I hurt because this isn’t how it was suppose to be. I thought I was going to be his mom. but I have to work and go to school and live and be young. fuck. If only I could hate his father. at least Id have something to release the pain. but I cant hate him … it would mean hating part of what my baby is. money is always short. patience is always thin and weary. Im always just a little bit tired. or preoccupied. fuck sake. I just want to be a good mom. I want to be there and I want him to feel loved and safe. Im trying… I really am… I guess I just have to try harder.

Well lifes been getting better I have my confidence back. Johnny is wonderful. I think Im getting there. and Im so glad.

I know that I am a good mother, but I want to be a great mother. I think being a great mother means to be understanding, patient, open, honest, respectful, and wise. I work very hard at all of the above, to be there for my kids the best way I know how. I give them what I desired as a kid and that is communication with my parents. I enjoy spending time with my children, I let them know that they are my world. I try to be positive even when I am feeling negative. If it takes me going outside to play basketball with my son and his friends everyday, then that’s what I will continue to do. Besides I like having that time with my son. It means a lot that I go out there to spend time with him and his friends. I will continue to have girl day’s with my daughter, it gives us that girl time that we need to have girl talk together. I will continue to play leggo’s with my 5 year old if that is what gives us the one on one time together. I always make sure that they all get they’re own special day with me. It gives me time to know my children and it allows us to have our one on one talks together. I wouldn’t trade being a MOM for the world. I love being a mother. Time together means laughing, dancing, and acting crazy in the store or at the park. When I look at my children, I remember what it was like to be a kid and acting like one comes naturally. My kids love when I step out of the MOMMY role and bring myself down to they’re level. Besides, life is to short to not enjoy life with your children. But when it comes to being an adult, my kids know I mean business. Hehe…:) I LOVE MY BABIES!

Sincerely,

Jlono_23