Have a completely different life by this time next year

I have a job. I have had it for 12 years. I have had quite a few different roles in the company but have hated most of them. The company is rubbish to work for, they disrespect their staff and their customers and it is becoming more and more and more about statistics and numbers. I am not a statistics and numbers kind of girl.

I have been planning on leaving forever but I kept coming up with so many conditions – the money is good for what I do, the hours are great etc etc. But when you feel like you can’t leave the house every single day????what price happiness? So I have given myself permission to look for another job, something more fulfilling, maybe at less pay and perhaps working crappier hours – but it is time to stop making excuses and to enjoy ALL parts of my life again.

Damnit, I haven’t even started on this one and it’s already been more than four and a half months. D: Crap.

I’ll just put New Years (2009/2010) as ‘next year’.
I don’t want things to change because my life is miserable or anything, there are just things that need to change. Whether it is self improvement or just something that needs to be different for the better.
Some things just need to have changed by next year.
I need to…
- have a better body (one that’s taken care of)
- be healthier
- happy
- be more confident
- have a job
- be better at planning things
- be less materialistic
- have completed about half my list

My birthday is on the 28th of september, So I’ll write back on that day.

I have no licence, no car, and no transportation to college as of now. No job, Still living with mom while going community college, No money saved except for a few hundred from summer job, rest went to books and fees. average grades pt average. no finacial burdens (I didn’t say I was going to list everything that I wanted changed). There is a lot more but, in the big picture that is about it.

By the 3rd of august 2009, I want to be a completely different person, both physically and mentally.

I want to be thinner.
I want to be nicer.
I want to be more self confident.
There are lots more things I want, these things just spring to mind first.

2007 Life: Just got laid off (effective 6/30/07), live in a 3br townhouse in NWLA with 3 cats, work at a spa on Saturdays, on antidepressants, just diagnosed with ADD. Weight = 190ish. Drive a 4Runner. Mortgage, car payment, student loan, credit card debt. Not in a relationship.

2008 Life: 9 months at new job in South LA. Accepted to PhD program to start in the fall. Renting 1/2 of a duplex, tenants living in my townhouse. 2 cats (RIP Cocoa). On antidepressants and ADD meds. Weight = 160ish and dropping fast. Same vehicle. Paying mortgage with money collected from renters. Still paying on student loan, car payment, but minimal credit card debt. Dating.

now. My boyfriend proposed last night. Turns out he has been planning this for weeks. Tentatively we are planning to get married on our 10th anniversary. It was quite a surprise.

Lets hope in the right direction for a change

Try try try again..

I will have all three children with me and happy..