feel alive

I am 19 years old and have becom addicted to weed….i feeel like ismoke it all the time..and the werd thig is….i dont eve wan to most of the time….everyone else wants me to at different times so i end up doing it a lot. espescially me best friend….she wants to to do it all the itme….i feel like i am not doing anything wth my life and am wasting all my time money and energy to much on weed but i dont kno how to just not smokw anymore its all i do any pretty much the only firneds i have or that ask ,me to hang out anymore only want to smoke :( what do i doo

I want to search and find the moments when I feel most alive.

So far the only time that I really feel alive is when I am at a concert or on a crazy road trip. That’s how this goal ties in to my other ones, If I form a band and perform live I will always be on a road trip and I will be at a lot of concerts. I also think that if I feel alive in the audience of a concert I will feel even more alive If I am the one giving the concert.

my boyfriend and i have been going out for almost a year. i completely in love with him. and he is in love with me. we were friends before we started dating. he is an amazing guy. lately, i feel like things arent how they used to be. he used to text me things like i miss u, or i want to see u. now he doesnt. i guess its because we have been going out for so long but i still miss it. i feel like i am not fun or something to him… i dont know what to do. i talk to him about it but he says i still make him so happy… siggh… am i just being a baby…

I’m tired of just existing..I want to feel alive…feel like there is a point to what I’m doing

feel alive

still trying to get out of this rut every time im almost out of the dark something push’s me back im going to keep trying but i still feel dead inside

with gas prices these days, i’m not going anywhere for a vacation. But I feel that it’s long due that I feel alive again. How? i think I need to challenge my most inner fears. Not sure what that would be, probably something todo with fear of failure one way or another.

but it might return to my list.

I like the world so very much.

You know those Diesel Fuel For Life commercials where a lady/man says Are you alive? They did a shitty thing to me. I wonder who made them. They’re brilliant. Like they were made for me. No, I’m not going to buy those products, because I’m smart enough to know they’re not going to make me feel any more alive.

But sometimes I still wonder if it would do something psychologic to me. (I guess it wouldn’t work if I was aware of what I was doing, though! Pity.)

Well okay, it would just make me miserable.

Damn, I’m taking this life way too seriously. It’s just life! Nothing more! It’s just all you’ve got!