be strong

I want to get stronger so I can get back to my real life. Since I broke my ankle in 2007, I have had problems with my leg, with walking, with everything.
The plan is to keep on with therapy, see about accupuncture (appt. today 6/29/09) and keep on the elliptical schedule.

surprised….I knew, when you suggested we go to Kelly’s for dinner, the place we go to escape, when our troubles seem to get the best of us…the tropical atmosphere of sand and palm trees, always has a way of making us feel better
But, I knew, by your face, that was not going to happen yesterday
you smiled, that nervous smile, as you told me, that we will have to learn to live, with your atrial fibrillation, as part of our lives..your heart has been damaged, and there is nothing much left that they can do except maintain it with medication…we have to accept that there will be days, that you just aren’t feeling up to par, that you will get tired more quickly…we can adjust, I told..we have done it before….
I remember saying…”for better, for worse, in sickness or in health..”

Everybody things that I am a strong woman. Yes, I am. My life is kind of mess but I believe I will be ok. I believe in God too! Be strong is really helps me those days!

being strong means being weak, what is weak and how weak you really are. you have to go through alot of pain to be strong. what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger as long as you let yourself be as you wish. where your mind settles is what your strength will be, so keep yourself of sound mind and body through using relating pain as a learning curve than a suffering. without pain, how else could a man feel at ease and know how to live a life of strength?

I wrote,the previous entry, about you, not being the strong one, the last time we saw each other…
I have learned, that being strong, shifts, and changes..with each burden
Being strong, is actually a gift, that we give to the people that we love, you taught me that…
because we will cling to that gift, in our moment of weakness…
you taught me, that love, is sharing the strength, of your shoulder and mine, or sharing weakness, the same way, one loving shoulder at a time..thank you, for the gift of your shoulder…

Its not the first time ive been heartbroken … And Im sure that it wont be the last time eithier . But I dont understand on how everytime its somewhat like the last guy . Is it something Im doing wrong ? I really liked this guy I gave what I had when I was with him . But he had his player history behind him . I heard one thing here and there and all along I always believed him . We started dating and admitted to me he had hooked up with someone else . :(
After awhile of dating .. he admits to me he had something going on with my OWN cousin … What do I do now ? Back off right ? Its hard … and Im hurt … I really did like him … Did he like me ? Once again ….

She’s home.
I’m so relieved! I know it will be a struggle for my mom mostly, because right now gran can’t take care of herself, but we’ll all help and make their days as enjoyable as we can. Can’t wait to finish work and go see her…

My grandma is coming home from the hospital tomorrow, but the way they treated her on the recovery ward in the hospital has weakened her so much I am hoping she makes it through the night tonight. We (my sister and me) will probably be writing a lot of compaint letters in the next few days. If someone gets fired (not very likely) on accout of our complaints, so be it, they are not fit to be helping people.
Hoping that sweet, dear, kind, fragile woman comes home safely tomorrow. Nothing else matters now.

that this time you were not the strong one…that the economy, has but shattered, your dreams..all that you have worked for..you and I are not young..what was lost on the market, may never be, again….you, for the first time, was the vunerable one…and I hoped I listened, enough, to encourage you, to be supportive..you are a man, a wonderful man to me, regardless, if you never worked again a day in your life..if all you had, was two nickles to rub together, YOU..would still be, an amazing man, in my eyes….I want you to relax, I want you to enjoy this time, you have….you earned it. I have been hard on the men in my life in the past..I never realized, that there were actually men that made HUGE sacrifices…for the people they love…I was wrong, they do…you showed me that..and I am so gratiful, for that lesson

Led skies again…
The surgery went well, but she’s still too drowsy, even today.
The doctor said they fear for her lungs and heart.
I can’t do this.