finish what I've started

I’m such a procrastinator I really need to finish these things!

I make a list of things to do every month. It’s such a pleasure to see I’ve done everything… but, to be honest, it’s soo hard to complete the plan … ;)

this one just keeps popping back up. i’ve gotten rid of so much stuff/clutter this year, but then its starting all over again with the new place. think i’ll take a little breather from new stuff and just consider all thats been started and not finished for now – that should keep me busy for january :)

well it was going pretty good for awhile, then i got the grand idea to move to city and bam. i’m paralyzed again for months. wtf? so i’m back at this, this month i’ll get the grass in the backyard AND get the front of the house painted. THIS month. JUNE 2007.

the going is tough

CONUNDRUM

word keeps buzzing about in my head…

I’m great at problem solving, planning, visualizing. Really.. show me the issue and I know just what to do… not only to fix the current problem but make the situation ABSOLUTELY-PERFECT-SO-IT-WILL-NEVER-HAPPEN-AGAIN!!!

I just can’t stop seeing and solving the problems in my head long enough to actually get it done… and of course, I refuse to solve just the current problem,
I MUST FIX THE ROOT CAUSE

All that translates to a humongous pile of UNFINISHED CRAP.

Not only is the original problem still there, but I’ve managed to magnify it, bringing all the previously hidden, unobtrusive, subtle, possible future intrusions and variations right up front for constant inspection…. Of course, I’m on to the next issue by then, so I just end up with MORE to overlook, but still sit in the back of my head…

So, before I tackle anything else, I want to FINISH:
*my backyard landscaping
*the family pictures, sort, send to aunt barbara and other relatives who know who the heck these people are
*all the stuff i’m going to get rid of someday on ebay
*setting up my office
*filing and distributing digital pics.
*getting an extended warranty for my car.
*doing all the misc stuff I told Ken I’d do

i know what i want to do … what is my problem with doing it?
i know (roughly) what needs to de done… so why am i only doing it half way

is it confidence that i’m lacking
or is it lack of self-esteem
do you see what i mean

do i really nead to work harder
or just believe in my dreams
how do you make dreams a reality

who knows?????

that I cannot seem to finish most things that I start? I start a really great project- like my painting from November- but do not finish it before I start on yet another project. I bet it would feel good to actually complete something, better than coming up with another idea for another project.

So, I am going to try to finish just one project this weekend. No more wasting away my weekend. One step at a time.