Tell God Everything

I’ve been a bit more focused on ‘spilling my guts’ during prayer time lately. It is therapeutic and really helps me get stuff out from my heart/mind/soul. I know that God helps me bear them.

Last night I couldn’t sleep, so I was up at midnight, reading journal entries where I told God everything. It isn’t like God doesn’t know these things, anyway, no matter how I choose to define “God”. But being just bald-faced honest about everything…man.

There was one where I wrote things I felt ashamed of. Some of these things I have, am working to change. And some were secret confessions…”man” on that, too.

Reb Nachman of Breslov said to tell God everything. I am going to take this advice as a goal.

I don’t believe in a God “out there”. I believe in God “in here”. For me to tell God everything could be rephrased as, “be completely authentic to [or “with”] myself”. I thought of adopting that goal instead, because it side-steps the God language. But I thought it would be more powerful to use Nachman’s phrasing instead.

And really, how can I be authentic with other people, if I can’t first be true with myself?