visit my Dad`s grave

Will go within next few weeks

On father’s day I went and sat there, as soon as I drove into the cemetary, I burst into tears. I Listened to Box of Rain, and cried and cried. I am glad that I finally did it. I couldn’t really look at his name engraved on the tombstone, or else I would just break down. Now that’s the shock is out of my system, I think I can visit without freaking out too much.

I had a rock from his grave that I’ve been having since his funeral, and I lost it. This made me pretty upset, and I still haven’t visited his grave. Not for lack of oppurtunity or thought, but lack of strengthhh, I don’t think I can look at the tombstone and see his name on it. At the funeral, the headstone wasn’t ready yet, so I didn’t have to see it. Ughleksjfdkj, life gives me so many lemons recently.

I haven’t seen it since just after the funeral two years ago. He’s in Indiana, and I’m down here in Alabama. I haven’t even seen his headstone yet. I need to see it to I suppose clear my head.

My father shouldn’t have a grave for me to visit.

21 years since he died…and the last time I visited his grave was that year. My mom didn’t take me back until after grass had grown over the grave. I was 7 years old then…and I’m 28 now. I want to go back, it’s just so painful and I know it’s going to be a very emotional moment when I start thinking about all the things he missed in my life: proms, graduations, weddings, the birth of my son…

I live 2,000 miles away from where he’s buried now, but next time I’m close, I’m finally going to do it.

i just cant bring myself to do it…i wonder if its disrespectful to him not to…but it just kills me..i havent gone in months…

he died almost a year ago, dec. 18th, and i havent visited yet, i just cant bring myself to do it.

his grave is in new orleans and i live in houston, so i dont have the chance too often, only on holidays.

then we went home and listend to goofy audiotapes he used to make of us…

I haven’t been back there in close to 10 years. It’s in a rural part of West Virginia that is maybe 5-6 hours away. I need to visit one more time before I (someday) move to the east coast.