start participating

I just read the book, “The Perks of Being a Wallflower”. Pretty inspirational book and a good read for people that don’t like to read (such as myself), but there was something special about this book that made me realize something about myself; I don’t participate in life with other people. What I mean is, though I have friends and I do things and go places with people, everyone just lives around me. I stay introverted, never telling people what I want or what I need and so forth. Basically, I want to stop doing that and start participating. I want to hang out with my friends and be the first to call them. I want to make sure that I get something out of these relationships and that they actually mean something more to me rather than just being a happen-chance thing that I see these people and I happen to spend a little time with them. I need to get to a point where people stop living around me and start living with me.