"Compliments Journal"

gave me a lot of compliments on my appearance, which was very flattering even though I think he was just trying to distract me from concentrating on our chess game. ;D So, I thought I would record the compliments here because I was very pleased, although I did lose two games to him yesterday.

Also, which meant more to me, he said I made some good moves in the game! I’m “good with the rooks,” haha. :D

1. my boss told me that my hand drawn designs are even better than what the CAD department can do (as far as the custom-hand-drawn kind of designs go).
2. someone told me that “I am full of light”. I love that.

Yesterday was lunch with friends and i had worn a pretty skirt and blouse. My friends have usually seen me only in my gym wear, so they complimented me saying i look really cute in a skirt :)

I wasn’t there to turn in my assignment last week for my computer rendering class. He handed them back this week and went over things I could improve on. It was so funny, though, I sat down and he was looking for my paper and when he found it, he went “Oh there it is. Your’s was the good one.” I thought he was comparing it to the other one next to him. And then after we’re essentially done going over it, he suddenly pushes his chair back and goes, “Everyone? Everyone, look at Ivymere’s window. Her’s is the most like a window proposal.” I was so embarrassed, because I honestly don’t think it’s that great. I actually love my concept but I don’t like how I executed it/presented it. And more embarrassing so because it was so unexpected! I was kind of staring into space/at the table because I don’t really like that kind of attention on me when I feel I don’t deserve it. Then, he goes, “When you see her next, buy her something. Be her friend.” I was like…”I want to curl up into a ball now, I’m so embarrassed.” But it definitely boosted my self-esteem. Wheeee.

i guess for me some of the challenge is in learning to accept praise. and with that to really feel it and believe it IF it resonates with me as true to who I am.

i can tend to find reasons to discount it. i really thought i was a pretty confident woman until taking on this goal. i think confidence must be a process like anything else-something we at times are farther away from than we’d like, but that awareness shifts our focus to moving towards it again.

I feel most confident in myself when I am aware that the words I speak, the actions I take, are in align with my deepest purpose and values..When I feel like I am energized and engaged in the perfect balance for me of doing and being. I also have a strong need to be of service, to contribute.

My highest values currently are:

to inspire and feel inspired
to empower and lift up
to discover and learn
to experience and help others create harmony/peace
to express my creativity in the world

so uhmm where was I going with this post? haha

My husband told me I was a wonderful life partner. I know he believes that, but I think he might have been fishing for someone to take care of him as he was having a wisdom tooth cut out this morning. He knows I make fabulous soup and I think that was his way of asking for soup tonight for dinner! Still, whatever his motivation, it was a lovely thing to say and even more lovely to hear it being said about me.

Yesterday, got told (by 3 different people) I have “cute shoes,” “pretty feet,” and “no wrinkles”! (The last was in the context of a skin care discussion…it would be a sort of weird thing to say out of the blue.)

Also, overheard my art director saying to someone, “Rose can take care of that, she’s the master at that.” I don’t even know what it was though :D

it meant a lot to me to hear the other day from my coach who knows me well,

“You are ready for this! You already are an excellent coach, I just know that. Look at how long you’ve been engaged in the learning of coaching and how long you’ve been naturally using these skills with friends/family,former clients, etc. You’ve been providing such value and for “free” for a long time..I know you will provide your clients with such care, attention, and quality coaching..You will give them more than you even have to, because that’s you.

or something like that.. i took notes after our conversation b/c it was such an uplifting conversation. it made me realize the truth, that I am quite prepared to coach clients AND to begin making a nice living from it. sometimes it’s hard to be patient. :)

the discussion came about in part due to my discomfort about setting a fee for my coaching services and to my decision (for now) to hold off on doing any further pro bono work because of my need to transition from being a student.

You see I am really feeling challenged by this goal. :)

I feel uncomfortable and embarrassed about “tooting my own horn” here in what feels like a rather public way. It’s easier for me to share how I messed up on something or what I’d like to do differently.

Isn’t that funny? That’s why I’m going to stick with this goal for awhile b/cthe uncomfortable feelings tell me there’s learning in store for me!

I kinda felt like this when I had the Commit Random Acts of Kindness goal. :)

a blog friend told me I was fabulous. Don’t know how true it is but props to him for trying.

I went to the tutoring/education-help center at my campus at asked them to recommend books for my own reading since the program I’m in doesn’t allow me to take art history classes. They were really impressed that I wanted to spend my free time studying some more. That made me feel good about myself – because it does show I’m putting in effort and that I do care about this field I’m pursuing.

I complimented a friend on her awesome pink flats that looked really cute.

I complimented another girl on her gold-plated watch because it looked nice on her.