dream in nature

another funny thing to do/event to perform would be to put a table on the middle on a big public square, get a waiter there, so one could suspect we’re just having a meal a bit off-restaurant – and watch the passers-by

Maybe this could be extended to find some people to actually discuss some subject at that special/specialized/made-special place.

Well, if I’d be able to set up long evening talks at the nearby student hostel or at any shared flat, that’d imply the chance to make others to report about me/my activities

Which on the other hand might contradict the goal to avoid to yet initially think about big outcomes. So, effectively the better way might be to start with just having such nice talks, make preparation and performance of them become routinated, and maybe then try to take the chance to get reported about me by that talks, e.g. by a regular podcast.
 

To apply what I’ve learned from the economics of free approach, getting reported about my activities would imply the chance to get hired for performing those activities in alternative contexts—which effectively would help me in serving my other goal, to redefine work//employment//commitment.

I’m missing the long evening of talks. I might get them back if I could arrange meetings [with people interested to participate in any such talks]. I might be able to arrange such in the student hostel nearby.

... Maybe some sort of a goal to be named by: “become a rock-star” (without the music thing)

As currently Duesseldorf is of more interest to me, I begun with Duesseldorf to find out how many districts it has – it’s 49.

Wikipedia was geat a help here.

Note, I worked all day long and don’t login here when I am at work – just to make sure, my colleagues won’t want to interfere with this my private sphere here. Therefore, digging out that bit of Wikipedia info is although a small success.
 

Now, what’s to be done, is planning.

To take a journey through several companies is one old dream of mine. The last few days, I noted down several ideas on turning this project into a multi-side win:win situation.

However, performing this journey..this project, embedding that journey, might be nothing less but fulfilling a prophecy my geeration was confronted with in childhood days – and, as I am after getting free of these shadows and demons, I think it might be wrong to yield the prophecy by doing the journey at all.

The prophecy was: “One day everyone of you, you will have to and go to work, doing boring tasks, task you won’t, don’t like to do. But you will do it, just because you have to. There’s no way out, no way of getting around of this.”

But I am believing – whatever they say, there is an alternative to this, nevertheless.

So, I doubt it would be right to follow this track.
 

However, I recognized how I became creative in planning to make this project accomplishable. I asked myself, what dream might be worth to actually be done – and I came up with MOM. Unfortunately, my interest in that, until now, was research primarily, not creating any multi-sided win:win situations using MOM. So, I didn’t go creative so far.

• Commuting in the train, take a book from a co-commuter, give them one of mine, ask them to read a page… or do this with a group of co-commuters, swapping books with each other. – I don’t yet have any idea how to put the fun into that, but there might be some, and at least that’d give a lot of subjects to talk about. So, everyone involved might learn to know about some (then ex-)strangers’ interests. – We might improve this by reading the stuff aloud, and only a paragraph or two, so everyone immediately would learn something about the others of the group.
• I might want to learn about the dozens of city districts – either of the big city nearby or where I work. I could advertise and ask for someone who knows somewhere deeply involved in that destrict – an district native one, for example. I’d take an hour for an express sight-seeing tour with them. Getting a chance to learn about the city, its districts and their inhabitants very well. Also, I’d meet some strangers, so the city might become less strange to me and more familiarly, as I go on with this process/project. In the end, all the strangers I met in the meantime and me, we could have a party – although until now, I don’t have the least idea where to party and how to finance that, but maybe someone will have an idea i nthe meantime. This would be a win for them – to be involved in this project, to meet the others involved, to meet me, to show me around, to learn a bit more about their destrict. – This also would be a benefit for me, as I’ll become more familiar with the city, and I learn to know about people. .. Maybe, it might be an idea to have a cooking party with one of the city guides at the end of each week, so I could network already while still in the middle of the ongoing project. – And a third benefit it could bear if I’d blog about it – it’d entertain the audience and might gain us – everyone taking live part in the project – some ideas how to improve the experience.
• And what I thought about too, was to join to people waiting somewhere, e.g. for a bus, and then blind-date them, pretending to been waiting for a blind-date match and I’d think they were them…. probably not that much fun at all, plus it’d demand a lot of courage to really pretend that, without the least hint on that it’s being fake.

But the city guide project, I might want to perform. – And it might already be about time to schedule the first meetings, as not everyone might instantly know someone who’s entrenched to their certain district – and willing to ‘play’ city guide and join performing the project.

Their win of taking part could be improved by networking them, bringing them in touch with people who match them – or non-matches, but at least people to meet who they might want to find out semselves whether they’re matches or not.

Being asleep in the back of a car while she was driving us across Europe. Noticing the passing flares of streetlights while I woke up. Feeling the chill of beeing in a car at night, noticing the wind’s sound while we chased along the autobahn.

That’s something I want to experience once again.

There was not the least doubt that it’d been oay that I were on the backseats, not staying awake with her in the nights.

An xkcd comic strip made me aware of that wish again.

To get it that easy and certain might need to be in love with someone where it’s completely okay to leave her side and have a nap in the cool back.

• get ride in a convertible which would be after enjoying the sun, feeling the pressure of the air colliding with oneself, and how the wind’s playing with your hair
• find a real-life bazaar – which, in terms of dream in reality, is after getting absorbed by the situation..the atmosphere, its smells, heat, humitity, insects crawling on your skin, sounds, loudiness, background whirr, and background noises like a starting lorry some place nearby, the cornucopia of visual input, the diversity of goods offered – and people speaking in all sorts of languages and dialects.
• fly a kite on the beach is another variant of getting absorbed by the situation..the atmosphere, what I feel, smell, chill I feel on the skin, spritzers of water. Feeling my body running, to get the kite into the sky, breathing… Anyone willing to join me?

I realize, this goal might be closely related to that other one: Both indicate, I am after to find some kind of meeting place and people – and actions to do – which are not customized to society’s opinions and demands.

I’d probably like to be with people who are not after showing any sorts of protest against whatever society but still don’t feel to match that society’s norms, hence take other ways but those predefined ones.

This might be the thing I might make the difference. ... I just imagined the day I’s look back to stories I told – either written or by performances like these – and then tell an interviewer what I remember about school days where there were mates who actually were against people who were an oddity, who made a difference. That day, I’d be able to make them aware of me once again and tell them: ‘This was and this is the difference I make. And that I make the diffeence, is wanted. In case you didn’t realize before, you were wrong!’

I am not sure, but this one goal here might actually point to a sort of coming-out, whatever kind of coming-out that might be.