George's Manifesta

Do I always shoot myself in the foot? Why is that? It happened this week, I suppose. My dad got sick, I thought it was a mild stroke, it turned it it wasn’t, but he went to the emergency room anyways…I felt guilty, why? I questioned my repsonse.

Now, I haven’t been the same all week long and it’s Friday evening at 7:51 PM EST and I am here writing this drivle, this crap about myself and feeling sorry about myself? Why because I just realized upstairs that I choke, I give in when things are going “too good” I crack, I break, I don’t go for the ring, the prize, the carrot at the end of the stick. I stop just before it.

I missed my class Monday at Simmons’ why did I miss it? I blamed it on being sick, worried about my dad and afraid to leave him alone the first evening…okay maybe that’s a good thing, but why did I not get my paper turned in Wednesday evening when it was due? Why? Because I choked, I have been sick all this week, headaches, feeling lousy, coughing, taking that blasted DayQuil and kicking myself in the butt for being a total jerk.

All I have been doing is feeling lousy about myself, I feel sick right now and have been sleeping most of the time, I should have been writing my paper, I have another one due Monday and the final one Wednesday. SO I am going to leave this for now and get some work done before I choke once more. Kudos.

“Toe Be or Not Toe Be”

Article from Suzi Beauty Blog

”...Rockers do it. Athletes do it. Even the guy in the next cubicle might do it… We’re talking men wearing nail color on their toes – and you’d be surprised at how popular the trend is. Think if it as “ink” for your toes, guys – choose from super-bright shades (including blue, green, yellow) and dark tones, especially black (OPI Black Onyx Nail Lacquer is a favorite among the male-nail set). Maybe it’s just one toe, maybe all ten – but isn’t it time you strutted your stuff?...”

”...Suzi Weiss-Fischmann is the Executive VP & Artistic Director of OPI Products Inc., the world leader in professional nail care. Suzi is known as the First Lady of Nails, because she single-handedly selects every OPI Nail Lacquer shade based on each season’s fashion and beauty forecasts. Suzi knows the trends because she sets the trends. Her passion for fashion and instinct for color are part of what make her style sense so special – and on this blog she shares tips for fashion, beauty, wellness and more!...”

This article from Suzibeautyblog.com is very interesting and hits so close to home. I have written to OPI.com about having a men’s line of nail colors and I think her web blog is the first one I have seen that even mentions men and nail color.

Why? Well, I am a man who loves to paint his toenails and I use OPI’s products as some of you on 43 things know but now I am going to post this on “My G Spot” as well. In case your wondering I am not gay, (although there is nothing wrong with that, I am all in support of the LGBT community, it’s just I am straight) nevertheless, I have heard that when some people see men wearing nail color there immediate reaction is unkind and sometimes unsupportive although I have never come across this myself…if you want to know why I got involved doing this it’s because I love doing it and it makes me feel happier with myself. But if you want to know when this started, send me an email to gstamas@aol.com and I will explain this further. Peace.

I made the mistake of accusing Balut of being insensitive and insulting so I let my male pride and went in to save the day, I imagine. It’s just I am always around web sites that try to help battered woman, and just made another comment about a guy I thought was “punching her in the face” and then I read the comment and just freaked out.

I expected a war, like he has every right to give it back to me but I am so glad he didn’t mean it as an insult. He’s really a nice guy, his website is cool and that what was so surprising. So, I will admit when I am wrong, I apologize Balut, I misjudged you, please accept my apology and hope we can move on fro this. I owe you some cheers…

(((((((((((((huggs)))))))))))

Love,

George :)

This guy makes an insulting remark to my friend Iris, for no reason at all. She did nothing to him. Iris is just a nice young lady, she is probably afraid right now. How would you feel if someone made a nasty sarcastic remark about a question you asked here?

He seems like a nice guy on his web site, many people have cheered him; but when he told her it’s because “she is like sh_t, and has nothing better to do,” that really pisses me off, I am so angry right now…and I never get this angry…I hope he responds back…

43 Things is such a nice friendly supportive atmosphere and whenever someone comes along and just makes a stupid snide remark, no joke, why do they do that?

If they want to insult someone, go to another web site.

What do you think?

I think I am going to the gym tomorrow and work out my frustrations…

I haven’t written here in a long time and I apologize for that. It’s that this week is going to be wild and crazy. If all goes well, I am going to be taking another floral design course “Wedding Flowers” for two weeks, Tuesday-Thursday evenings. At the same time I have enrolled to take a Gender Studies class in “Special Topics:Pop Culture. My Honda was hit on Saturday evening come back from Boston, so I need to take care of that, fill out a RMV report, insurance, etc. The Avon Walk for Breast Cancer is this Friday, and this morning I went down to the gym and forgot my gyn shorts :( so I had to leave. I did find my missing black bracelet which was the first thing I made in beaded jewelry class, it was down on the floor of my driver’s seat, LOL I am way behind on people’s birthdays I know, so please forgive me if I missed your birthday, I won’t forget them, it’s just I haven’t completed the goals yet, but I will.

Anyway, just thought I would vent a little here so I can free myself of the overwhelming emotions I am having, and this worked…

But this weekend I faulted and now will begin the countdown allover again. I beleive that with everything going on now in my life and last week, it just got the best of me.

I volunteered three times for the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer, making phone calls, stuffing envelopes and helping hand out Bottled Water at this Saturday’s Avon Expo. Plus, Friday I took my dad to the Social Security office for his taxes. Planning for an upcoming trip to New Orleans in April 2008, helping stuff envelopes for NARAL Pro Choice Massachusetts this Saturday, trying to schedule an author for our Code pink book club in May, and met a wonderful and dear new friend Gitschotellei who I chatted with and ^{hope she doesn’t mind me saying this} she made me feel so happy with her comments and compliments that made me blush.

Finally, I believe not seeing my therpaist this week, because she is on vacation till next week, may have something to do with these attacks. Now, I feel really good and through her suggestion I have created what I call a “Vision Board” actually it’s just a series of “Super Sticky” post-its that I marked and labled for various projects I am involved with. Seeing these on the wall each day will help me do things I have neglected in the past. Breaking down each task into smaller chunks might also help me deal with my ADD. All I know is I feel such a sense of accomplishment by just doing this one thing! Thanks for all your support.

Today I jumped out of bed ready for the day then, I realized I forgot to set my alarm clock with “Dqay Light Savings Time” in fact I set it back so I was two hours off! LOL.

So It’s now 9:00 AM and have so much to do. Clothes to cleaners, gorceries, my last pair of good jeans ripped at the knee so I had to pick up a pair $15 ^{regularly sold at $42} at TJ Maxx. Before I left the houise this morning I did laudry, cleaning and put clothes away.

Went to the grocery store and while waiting at the meat market was playing with a very beautiful and young ^{maybe 2? yrs} girl sitting in her mom’s shopping cart. At first she gave me that, “who do you think you are look?” then I had her with funny faces, moving hands, and peek-a-boo with a piece of paper, she laughed when my face changed from big smile to small smile, I am so goofy but she made me laugh and she even gave me a high five and sadi “bye bye” when she left.

I also was talking to this young lady about her gorgeous Coach handbag. I told her I recognized the brand logo with the two inverted “C”s she must have thought, “why does this guy know so much about Coach handbags?” but I didn’t care :)

Bought some more flowers for the house, and so desert for the Avon Walk “Goody Bag” Stuffing tonight, that I am really excited about.

Finally, I am honored about all the amazing and awesome, gorgeous and intelligent people who associate me with red painted toenails, women’s right, feminism and flowers. Thank you all for commenting on Viccy’s goal on “post random questions…goal” I imagine my next toenail color will be a shade of red LOL :P

Feeling really good today and so alive. Planning to go to Boston today for a Code Pink Boston monthly meeting, have a lot to dicuss and will share that later.

I love my new Samsung M-510 phone, it allows me to download picture, no charge! unlike the other phone, but I had the music package added on, I love Sara Barailles, (Love Song) and Anna Nalick (Breathe 2AM) and Alanis Morisette (Otta Know)

Talking to me dear and close friend Nevenka <3<3<3 and chatting with her sharing music videos and George Carlin, yea!

Last week,, Tuesday at the CNW workshop on “Safe Cosmetics” and the Campaign for Safe Cosmetics in Massachusetts
and being the only guy there with painted fingernails, LOLFeminism and Desert and going back Friday to hear Janice Erlbaum about her new book “Have you found her?” Plus WAM 2008 is coming at the end of March 29-30, 2008.

Volunteered for the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer on Thursday last week sealing envelopes for a mass mailing for the 2 Day Walk which I will be crewing again this year. Kekkey the new Crew Coordinator is placing me on the “Set-up” Team because she feels, and I think so too, my talents would be best suited there. It’s nice to know someone thinks about what I really do for the Avon Walk, cool! The Avon Walk is on Saturday May 17-18, 2008 and there’s still time to walk, volunteer and join a crew^{crew teams are filling up fast!}

Signed up for Jewelry Making and plan to make beautiful beaded bracelets and matching earrings, LOL

I just read in Parade Magazine.com that you can help cure the negative thoughts in your mind, it’s really nothing new. 1)Breathe, take a deep breathe, hold it, exhale, then repeat for ten minutes; Take a walk, preferably in nature, Breathing in the fresh air.

2)Laugh, the more you laugh, the more oxygen is pumped into your lungs and improves blood flow and boose immune system.

3)Keep a journal, writing about emotionally charged events helps us deal with them mentally and physically.

I have been doing all three, except walking in nature more and no deep breathing for ten minutes, but now I know. Peace and Kudos, people, thjanks for all your support and caring remarks.

I am in an incrediably happy mood today, when I woke up and even now. World watch out, who knows what will happen next. I gave blood to the Red Cross and drove the people waiting for blood crazy.

I told them next we should have “drive thru” blood donations, one facing right and one facing left, depending on which arm you want to have them stick the needle in. Another way to get alot of donors for the Blood Drives? Serve alcohol afterwards. Only problem is after giving a pint of blood, they would need a stretcher, so that won’t work.

To speed things up down there, I told them have each arm used to give blood and take out only 1/2 pint each arm…Two at once, might work.

Nah, I figured the reason I am so happy is watching the gorgeous Sara Barielles with her shiny eyeshadow and just the way she pounds those keys in that song.

Or it could be Anna Nalick song “Just Breathe” from Grey’s Anatomy.

or it could be just a hello from the gorgeous and ever beautifulGitschotellei

Parker’s tulips are blooming like crazy and there so beautiful like she is.

Maybe it’s because I am love sick with life itself…

Isn’t this just great! I wake up this morning and what do I see, a thousand snow flakes right above me. There white and fluffy and cold to the touch and even when together they don’t make a good lunch.

I shovel them all in a big square and push them off my auto-ware, I haven’t fallen into a large bank, but you never know that today might let me tank!

I am writing this poem because I love snow so very much, after I am finished it’s time for a good lunch. Happy March 1st.