George's Manifesta

This is mty 43th entry for this goal…whoa!

Do you believe in a Higher than yourself?

I do.

This is what just happened today. I woke up late because I haven’t stopped going and coming back and going again. So I had an early Doctor’s appt. Then, I went to Jiffy Lube to get my oil and anti-freezed changed. Could they do it? But Noooooo! My radiator is leaking, oil leaking somewhere, so I drop off my little Honda off my mechanic, and walk home. Here’s the thing. I had radiator’s problems lasrt night and a few days ago. I just have been adding anti-freeze and/or water. Ever watch Sten’s Speilberg’s firsrt film? It’s “Duel” with (cowboy and detectie) Dennis Weaver. I learned this trick from the movie, if your radiator is overheating (in other words you see that tempature needle stay to climb, turn on the heater (and air conditining) and it dropped enough so I can add more enti-freeze and water and make it home last night.

So, anyway, I walk home and I come to my front door, stuipid silly me, left the front door open! They could have robbed me. I don’t ususally leave the front door unlockled like that, there’s was a $5.00 bill on the kitehn table, my PC and TV is still here, so I know that nobody cam e in. Hoepfully, they didn’t but I believe, God was telling me George, get home fast because leaving the house unlocked for more than an hour I might have been robbed. So looking down at me from the Heavens (my own opinion,) he is telling me not to get my anti-freeze and oil changed and then go home. He makes my car more difficult to repair, then puts me on a situation wheere I walk home and if I need to ssee my dad tonight, I have to use my mountain bike.

The other way, I may not have been forced to do that, because I wanted to lose some weight, around my belly…lol.

Does everything happens for a reason, I beleive that, I now await either my Honda is not worth fixing which forces me to get another car or just have it fixed and maybe get some auto body work done, so I can sell it later on and make it worth the sale…I have had five offers to buy the car, (I didn’t ask what they would pay which is even more crazy.)

Sunday, May 31, 2009. I just needed to vent and should of just skipped the whole 43 Completd goals program.

Now I feel guilty…

Anyway, this morning I went to WIngate to see my dad again, I wanted to make sure he had his hearing aid and glasses so he could communicate with however came and visited him today. I also wanted to bring him more clothes he needed and just be with him as his son. So I mareked some of his clothing just in case it gets lost and Wingate requires a complete inventory of all his clothing. Plus, I was there when he had lunch. Turkey and gravy, squash and red potatoes, some desert, milk, juice, etc. Then, after lumch I took him outside and into their beautiful landscaped garden with “spiralized bushes and unique trees and other flowery images.

Then my sister came with my youngest niece and I left.

First I Went to Wingate to visit my dad for a few and then left for Cam,bridge, MA for lillian’s vision about her incredible BJTWYA then I left and went to the Lexington Center and had brunch at Bertuccis’ and had this amazing lemon sauce chicken and spaghetti and garden salad. The waiter was extermely helpful, 4 cold glasses of ice water, so I gave him a big tip and told him to tell the chief this chicken and spagethi dish was the ebst meal I ever had in quite a while, Lisa and I ususally just have the chicken pizza and salad, because I went alone, I wanted to try something different and it was delicoua!

Then I went home and went to Bally’s and then home again and took a night time (which made me feel very athletic like I was in NU in 1980’s at the age of 20 something. Now, at 51! I feel maybe I can get back to the best shape of my life at 260 pounds I want to lose about 20-30 pounds this summer be ripped to shreda (wuithoui the steriods which I am against, and enver took in my lifer because they cause cancer, so why take them to get Hugh when you just might get cancer, God forbid you never get cancer…and die…so now at 2:00 AM I am finally relaxed and comfortable and plan to just keep writing till I get tired and go to bed and wake up and visit my dad again, maybe another mountain bijke ride in the early mornuing because I feel fantastic afterwards…

I still need to change my snow tires on my Honda to my four regular ones down in the basement. I know, I know…it’s on my list.

I just feel completely overwhelemd but what can I do? I am doing the best that I can, right? So, I just breathe and relax and go to my PC and answer some of my collection of 600 + emails that are still there. My therapist calls me, I laugh, Karen, how are you, she laughs, I explain the whole morning and how the gas furnace guy came and left. I carried a 5 gallon pail of dirty drained water from my furnace up and down the stairs of my basement. I didn’t care because I just eanted the furnace, “fixed and didn’t care what he charged me, I was despairte.”

Turns out we have a service plan for the furnace…no charge…have a ncioe day…I even offered him a drink or iced tea…I always do and even give a drink or soft drinks to my waste haulers who take away our trash and recyclables each Friday morning.

Hi Karen, well this is how it went. Result. My printer works, the furnace is fixed, still no meds from my doctor :( Today, I need to shower, shave and go visit a few places for my dad’s extended rehab.

The biggest thing today was from a nice woman whose web blog I subscribe to and make comments about her gorgeous manicured nails. She even mentions me in her blog! I was thrilled, here is what she wrote so I am famous, lol, my fiteeen seconds of fame from something a guy usually (or even never thought of doing in the first place) but remember this is me. Michelle has me running to cosmetic stores trying to find the color polishes that Michells mentions on her web blog. I must have really lost it. But, I can’t help it, I am a nail polish fanatic, there I admit it.

and Tarsty still has the most beautiful painted toenails, hi Tartsy how is it going? Well, that’s yesterday. Today is a little better. everyone have a ncie day, I need a shower.

Well, Wednesday morning I woke up and it kind of cold in the house, so I went downstairs to our basement and we have this gas fired furnace. So, it has a water level guage to check the water level in the tank and when it’s very low it shuts off.

I could not tell if the guage was empty or full by looking at the glass made guage it appeared the water level was very very low. So what did I do? Yes, I overfilled the tank and the furnace. I had water coming out of the cast iron radiators, water was flowing in the kitchen and the hallway, and leaking down the floor to the basement in drips and drabs. I thought we had broken a water pipe that was hidden in the walls. “Oh my God, I thought…we have to rip the walls to get to the broken pipes!

I call the gas company to have them come out because I had an anxiety attack along the way. They tell me, ” someone will be out right away. I call them back a second time…your on ourm list.” Okay, so I call my therpaist and I had run out of one of my medications I take four times a day. The night before I tried to get it refilled but the date on the bottle was 5/18, the Pharmacy would not fill the script even though I had three refills remaining.

You can’t make this stuff up. I call the place where the doctor prescribs my medications. I explain to the Receponnist the whole story, they understand the doctor? Well, he never even called me to see how I was doing. Anyway, I still am out of my pills. Also, I have ben having problems with my brand new PC I bought with Windows Vista; does anyone else have these problems? My printer won’t work, I call Dell they want money, I call my DSL provider for help, no luck.

I call HP the name of the printer, they want money to fix the problem with their own product…so he tells me to send HOP an email for help, no charge. Good, I send an email, they send me a downloadable file for my printer driver, just make sure to disconnect the printer before the install, I did and wal-lay my printer works now and I send them a nice thank you, thank, thank you.

Meanwhile my dad is in rehab at a amazing rehab in nashua, NE Rehab. Their staff I coudl send them all flowers and hugs for the tremendous care they give my dad as he recovers from his hip surgery. I was supposed to look at Nursing Homes with Rehab because he still will need extra care when he leaves the rehab.

showered went for my physical update report. My total chol is 119! Wow! Lowest it has been in years! Still can’t get my Ritalin, the Pharmacy has a glitch with my insurance company, day 5 withdrawl symmptoms.

Then I went to the dentist, I canceled three appts. before this one for anxiety attacks I was having, Some on the same day as the appt. Well, it went okay, the dental hygientist made me laugh and I couldn’t stop so she tried to smoother me with the handkerchief thingy that goes around your neck and that made me laugh more.

So after that the Doctor comes out and tell me “Good!” like the Verizon commercial and I yell, Yea! Thre more months free!

After that it was around 2:30 PM and I went to the American Red Cross and gave double red blood cells. You can actuially sit up on a bench propped up, eat cookies and drink Oj while they draw your blood, remove the red blood cells, and transfer a soluntion of saline while this is all taking place. They do this about 2-3 times and then your done. The only requirement is you have to have a pretty high iron level to be accepted to do this or you can just give a regular pint of blood.

Then, I came home and crashed, I felt emotionally drained and slept awhile. Now I am up and I think I am going to watch the DVD from Blockbuster.com “Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2,” Lol. I already seen the first one and I am a fan of Amber Tiesen who played in that show, “what if God is one of us, her older brother is in a wheel chair, and her father is Police Chief. The show got canceled after 2-3 seasons, I believe. Plus, the actress who plays the starring role in “Ugly Betty,” (love the shoe hate the title, sorry) America is one of the four girls in the movie. The other one is from the show with the single mom and her daughter goes to college, Harvard I believe; on Lifetime or another TV station and haven’t seen the show, maybe it was canceled too.

Well the Boston Celtics just won a short time ago by 2 points in double elimination overtime and in second place overall.

Well, let’s see took my dad to get his taxes done for free, only thing since he is now a widow, may my mom rest in peace where ever she may be, it’sm going to cost him some loot for the IRS.

Then he makes it down the very last step, and falls on his hand. It was my fault, I was trying to hold the door, and he came down too quick holding onto the rail. Some ice and he’s okay.

Come home and finish setting up my new PC. WHat a beauty, Dell Inspiron 4 G memory, large screen, cd/dvd rewritable, I even bouight a back up system , I tb from Fre Agent to back-up the whole thing.

One thing though…

Could not get the speakers to work! I also tried to find out why I could not get into AOL, it’s free you know. Talked to a nice young lady, she told me that since the existing account was in my ex wife’s name, I could not get another dvd mailed to me to install AOl, it’s AOL 9.5 now, I have been using aol,9.0. SO I asked to speak with her Supervisor, a nice young man, he was no help. Told me the same thing.

So, this morning called Dell Support, I first asked why aren’t my speakers working, tried all the connections, etc. Nic young man, he told me to just turn them on, LOL it appears they have a cicular knob on top of the speakers, lol boy did I feel foolish. At least they work now. LOL

Next I called Verizon, I asked why I couldn’t get on the internet. It appears I removed an extrta DSL cable, “connect the cable to the DSL modem and the other end to the phone jack, LOL Now, I feel really stupid, but it made my day. I had to laugh, “turn on the knowb” and connect the DSL cable to the modem and the phone jack, lol.

I have done some stupiod things in my life but none so stupid and dangerous as Friday’s supper. My dad loves hot dogs, so I was boiling them in a pan of water, with the cover on except a small opening for the steam to rise. Okay, so as you know I suffer from anxiety attacks, I took my meds (which I take 4 times daily) and they caused me to become nervous, (or I was nervous and anxious allready) climbing the walls with emotion, so I went upstairs and sure enough I went upstairs to lie down on the bed. BIG MISTAKE, something I will never do again, ever again.

The water in the hot dogs evaporated and the pan became so hot it burnt the hot dog meat and was smoking like crazy. I had no idea how long I laid down and will never do that with something cooking in the kitchen ever again.

The smoke was thick and filled the kitchen, went into the living room wgere my dad was watching TV oblivious to the smoke! It didn’t set off the smoke detectors because there wasn’t enough I imagine and the way our house is set up the smoke detectors are in the hallway and another by the hallway by the kitchen.

I beleive because of my emergency repsonse training I knew exactly waht to do, came downstairs, and opened the front door my dad and he wasn’t even choking, headed to the stove, shut off the burner, cover the pan and soaked the pan in the sink and started opening all the windows and doors. Luckily it was warm enough and raining so the smoke fumes dropped. I sent my dad upstairs to his room, opened his windows, and closed the door, I told him what was going on, we were safe, but not to come out until the smoke cleared. You could see the smoke fill almost halfway in the kitchen and the lower portion of the room was clear. I have seen this phenomen in a straw house wearing fire fighter’s turn-out gear when the Massachusetts Fire Fighting Academy gave me a Fire Brigade Training years ago.

I was going to call the fire department but there was no fire, the hot dogs were just smoking and the water cooled the pan, that pan is now gone.

I sat down on the kitchen table with the image of my dad, thanking God he didn’t become overcome with the smoke and my promise I will never cook anything ever again, unless I am in the kitchen. That includes the toaster oven, microwave, ove and range. I just wanted to share this with all of you because I was scared at how this incident affected my weekend and thats all I have to say at this moment, Please I don’t deserve any cheers, give them to someone who really deserves them, I don’t really want to talk about it, I think God, our Mighty Creator, sends us messages, there was a reason I smelled the pan burning and came downstairs. Thank God my dad was saved! That’s all that really matters to me was his life and I don’t want to think what I would have doen if I didn’t wake up like I did. It’ll never happen again like that I promise you that. It’ll never happen again I promise myself. I just wanted to share that with all of you. No need to send any comments… It’s going to take me a long time to heal from this episode, this event, life threatening event and how I came this close to hurting my dad, my 88 year old dad, just sitting there and not realizing the smoke around him. I feel like I failed to properly take adequate care fo him, and that what my job in life is now, isn’t it? That’s why I am living her with him because my sister and I don’t want to place him in an assisted living home, together we won’t let that happen. Amen!

I saw this ad after a late night movie commercial and just thought, “Hey why didn’t I think of that?” of course I wonder if some women will be cautious buying something without seeing it or holding it in their hands first. What I am mentioning here is the “Miche Bag” A women’s handbag with interchangable sides and backs. So you can color coordinate all your outfits with just one handbag with different styled and color sides that are held with powerful credit card sized magnets.

Sheila in Yellow
Wine Red Rachel

Would anyone here buy one and use it? It’s not a designer bag so maybe not. Miche Bag

As you know I have two seperate goals for two special people who I am working on to find clothing and accesories for their wardrobe. Some of the pictures are thin models who show up in the beautiful clothing. I don’t want anyone to get the impression that everyone who doesn’t have a “supermodel’s body” doesn’t have fashionable tastes. Instead I would like to say that any woman can look beautiful and I admire their fashion sense, regardless if they are short, tall, medium height, skinny to full figured in size, color of skin, hair color, length of hair, all women are beautiful.

Myself, I found this wonderful web site and would love to share it with everyone, especially for all women who love to shop and to get the fit they love based on their body shapes and other factors.

My Shape Marketplace is a web site that will take your measurement and place you into one of seven shapes M-Y-S-H-A-P-E and then make suggestions on what, how, where your wardrobe should look like. I am sure there are other web sites that do the same thing but this web site seemed very chic.

Once your “letter shape” is chosen you visit that page and it provides more information when you shop for clothes expecially on-line or in stores.

For example Letter HWomen with straight figures and aligned shoulders and hips, with very subtle waistlines. H-shaped women may also have a smaller bottom that is flatter in profile. Balanced Hip & Bust Subtle Waistline Often Flatter Bottoms

Suggested outfits for Shape “H”

Suggested outfits for Shape “E”

or Letter EWomen with rounded profiles whose waist measurements are proportionally larger than their more balanced bust and hip measurements. They’re often short-waisted and their legs proportionately elegant. Not a Big Difference Between Bust, Waist & Hip Measurements Often Great Legs