meditate weekly

& I really got into my groove today
feeling much more empowered this class to
talk my way through the guided meditation

I got positive feedback today
and everybody said they felt relaxed

I added aromatherapy this time
& used orange essentials for invigoration

continuing to teach breathing techniques
and working on “body scan”

Actually make that the first meditation class I’ve ever given
I would say it was a combination of guided meditation and relaxation
I thought it would be a piece of cake but found it harder because I didn’t do any prior planning

It went well enough but I really need to get a good technique down
and make sure not to have so many interruptions…too many people trying to get in the locked door

Planning on doing this for the registrants/patients weekly so
that will help me to accomplish this goal

for some needed meditation
even if it’s just in a chair
with a scented candle & lights dimmed

even while I may hear sirens wailing
or as motorcycles race by & set off car alarms
(the bikers do that a lot here)

hear the cat’s meow (namely Tom who has too much to say;
I’ve tried giving him the MEMO: “I don’t speak cat!”
clearly he doesn’t care)

let the anger, fear & sadness
bubble to surface
let the joy, gratitude & love
runneth over

center myself
imagine myself at the core of the earth
rising up into atmosphere
into stratosphere

let myself float into the
gaping mouth of outer space

and try not to ask, “Is this meditation?”
and try not to ask, “Am I doing this right?”

it’s just sitting & breathing & watching my mind
How badly can I mess that up?

I’ve always have a hard time sitting for meditation:
I get antsy
my mind wanders
my body fidgets
it usually rocks side to side

some people attribute this rocking to energy rising
I don’t like the sensation
I want to sit still

but instead:
My legs get cramped
My back aches

I get distracted:
I’ve tried scented candles
dark rooms
unplugging the phone
shutting the world out

In my head the world still looms

I’ve never found:
a groove
a flow
a daily practice

instead my best experiences
come from moving meditation:
tai chi
qi gong
even jogging

here my mind relaxes
it goes all “zen”

but even if I have to “sit”
I do much better in a chair
in front of the puter
and get all zoned out with
a meditation cd in the background
while I type

Today I just “Oh-med” in the car
stuck in traffic
looking across the expanse of bridge
that I didn’t have to cross

looking at the water rolling in the bay
waiting for the light to turn green

Today I meditated in my car
and zen-ed out through the 6pm
rush hour

It absurd i always tell myself i don’t have time to just sit down and meditate. I could probably be doing this in the time that i am writing this entry. It is the most relaxing and fulfilling thing i can do with my time. I have a daughter and watch 2 other children during the day having that time could really help me build my patience.

man i haven’t even tried to get a regular meditation schedule going! i put this up days ago and havent done it yet. maybe i should start smaller and try weekly instead of daily.
i have gone to a meditation retreat where all you do is eat sleep and meditate in total silence, but it is structured meditation time and while the experience is very valuable it does not translate easily into everday life.
Gambate! (work hard!)

I’ve created a new blog for this goal. the url is:
http://joylight.blogspot.com

There was a time when I meditated nearly daily. I felt much more at peace then, and much healthier. I’d like to get those feelings back. I’ll start with 5 minutes a day and see if I can just sustain that for a few days.