stop being antisocial

I realized that being unfriendly is NOT selfish, not unkind, nor wrong. I think it’s perfectly fine to be contented with the friends you have. :)

sometimes I just get spacey.. A.D.D.? or my fault iono…. i’m reading a book called Driven To Distraction it’s GOOD.

...screw it.
I like this, can’t change who I am.

I find myself often pulling away from people who could be good friends, I prefer to be alone most of the time. I feel like I have a few close friends who know more about me than anyone else, and my family, and wonderful husband. But I think it’s always fear, or not knowing what other people think, that keeps me from just embracing new friendships. Sort of like a fear of rejection, like maybe I’ll meet someone cool and they won’t like me, or that it will blow up in my face somehow…I want to work on accepting new friendships as they come rather than avoiding them.

I want to stop locking myself in the house frying my brain but i dont feel nothing but sadness, i cry even when im happy.

see above.

and the medication helps :)

I feel that one should bite the bullet and make socializing a mandatory part of life. I joined 3 student organizations and I participate in group excercise once a week, and I will attend group mediations every other sunday.

I’d love to be more social.. but I’m just too comfortable hanging out alone in my room with my blacklights on watching the Invader ZIM DVD’s.

I have been socializing far more lately and in general I enjoy it. What I don’t tend to do is just go out by myself. I like to do things with a group of friends but to just go out shopping on my own – forget it.