Be granted the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and to have the wisdom to know the difference...

I’ve been extremely busy lately that i never took time to pause, breathe and enjoy life. i’m stuck in a routine that has made me so unhappy right now. i don’t perform well at work anymore, and i’ve wasted soooo much time fantasizing about luxurious travels which i know is not possible in the near future.

just yesterday, my boss reprimanded me at work. that sucks! and it really got me thinking..i need to make changes to get back on track.

so i’ll be taking baby steps of a beautiful change… just revamped my goals on 43T!

I am bipolar, and schizophrenic… My bipolar episodes are triggered by weather, stress, and anything that swings me one way or another. My schizo episodes are triggered by stress and bipolar manic episodes.

My mother, who never sees anything good in me, is my biggest trigger. Today, I’ve learned that I need to accept that that is just who she is, due to her own mental problems, and accept that I cannot change that. I will never be able to make her happy. And I cannot change that.

Accepting this will be really really hard. But I can do it.

I freak out way too much over things that i know full well that i cannot control or change and it needs to stop.

However i am getting abit better at it lately… im not sure why

Silly example but its a step in the right direction… i like to save some of me txts that i like or make me smile or have some sorta meaning. every night before i go to bed i delete all my sent box messages. But the other night completely accidently i went to my inbox instead of my sent box and pressed erase all… erasing my entire inbox. Once id realised what i had done i was totally gutted coz there was some really sentimental texts i had on there. But then i stopped n took a few deep breaths and just said to myself “stop freaking out… there is absolutely nothing you can do about it now – they are gone and u have only had the fone for just under a year” unlike the last fone i had i had had the sim card since i was 16 and had loooooads of txts which were about 3/4 years old and THAT would have been really really sad to have lost them all. So it could have been worse… and once i had told myself that i stopped freaking out :)... so it worked

i think ive developed an i dont care attitude which is not necessarily good but it has helped with my stress…im really learning that i cant change everything ecspecially people so prayer is my best bet

i pray for wisdom daily which i believe is the key to this goal…wisdom to see things that i couldnt before and to handle it accordingly. i want to be at peace in my life and not have the stress that i do but im learning that majority of the stress in life is self-inflicted so im really trying not to stress over things that i cannot change anyway and if i can change it just do it instead of stressing over it

This really helped. I kept getting frustrated at work. I’ve really just about had it with my boss…and this prayer was in the back of my head and it made me realize that there really is a lot I can’t change and thus a lot I shouldn’t be worried about. The moments I thought of it I was exceptionally calmer. I really will try to keep this on my mind all the time. =)

I believe …. That just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean
they don’t love each other. And just because they
don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they
do love each other.

I believe… That we don’t have to change friends if we understand
that friends change.

I believe …. That no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to
hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe…. That true friendship continues to grow, even over the
longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I believe … That you can do something in an instant that will give
you heartache for life.

I believe ….. That it’s taking me a long time to become the person I
want to be.

I believe….. That you should always leave loved ones with loving
words. It may be the last time you see them.

I believe ….. That you can keep going long after you think you
can’t.

I believe ….. That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how
we feel..

I believe .. That either you control your attitude or it controls
you.

I believe …. That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I believe…. That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe….. That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing
and have the best time.

I believe…... That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when
you’re down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe…... That sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be
angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I believe….. That maturity has more to do with what types of
experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them
and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve
celebrated.

I believe….. That it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others.
sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe…... That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world
doesn’t stop for your grief.

I believe…... That our background and circumstances may have
influenced who we are, but we are responsible
for who we become.

I Believe ….... That you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret.
It could change your life Forever.

I believe . ..... Two people can look at the exact same thing and see
something totally different.

I Believe….... That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by
people who don’t even know you.

I believe….. That even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you – you will
find the strength to help.

I believe….... That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent
human being.

I believe ….. That the people you care about most in life are taken
from you too soon.

The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.

The Price of Success

What is the Price of Success? It is simply…

To use all of your courage to force yourself to concentrate
on a problem in hand, to think of it deeply and constantly,
to study it from all angels, and to plan.

To have a high and sustained detrmination to put over
what you plan to accomplish, not if circumstances be favorable
to its accomplishment, but in spite of all adverse circumstances
which may arise – and nothing worthwhile has ever been
accomplished without some obstacles to overcome.

To refuse to believe that there are any circumstances sufficiently
strong to defeat you in the accomplishment of your purpose.

HARD? I should say so! That’s why so many never attempt to
acquire success they answer the siren call of the rut, and remian
on the beaten paths for the beaten. Nothing worthwhile has
ever been achieved without constant endeavor, some pain,
and constant application of the lash of ambition.
That’s the Price of Success.

You should ask yourself. Am I willing to endure the pian of this
struggle for the comforts and the rewards and the glory that
go with achievement? Or shall I accept the uneasy and
inadequate contentment that comes with medicority?

Am I willing to pay the Price of Success?

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sometimes i get very overwhelmed by the things going on in my life..so im trying to learn not to stress over the little things, do the best that i can do at whatever it is that i am doing and let god handle the rest
prayer is the key and faith unlocks the door

aunt s. called up again. not about me anymore, but because she has a for to ask. this time there was less tension… (because she’s asking for a favor?) oh…i dont wanna think that way. I opened up the topic coz i really wanna explain my side. though she listened, she still talked more. and i dont think she understood well.

oh God…grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.