become fearless

An incident happened between one of my bosses, myself, and a co-worker. It left my coworker feeling nervous and feeling bad while here I am about 20 yrs younger yet I managed to just shrug it off. That was the first time I noticed that I don’t fear management and it’s silly to occupy your time worrying about it.

I’m cautious by nature, but I’m slowly letting go.

people will always have some fears

Most of my friends think that I’m fearless because I move around a lot and I say that it’s no big deal.I talk about things I want to do everyday and act like they’re going to happen.but the truth is I’m not doing any of them.I’m working toward nothing.I move around a lot because I’m restless and I tend to go along with whoever I happen to befriend.Whoever is nice enough to look after me.I’ve never done anything on my own.I’ve never been completely on my own.I don’t think I’m explaining myself well.I don’t want to grow up, someone always has to be there to take care of me.I just want to be fearless and do what I want, when I want.I want to go somewhere just for the hell of it and not because I want to be with someone.

I never really could figure out what is holding me back… some combination of fear of success and failure all at once lead me to just “be.”

I have been slowly reading “On Becoming Fearless” by Arianna Huffington. Some points really hit home… and I am becoming more motivated to change my life with each day.

Part of becoming fearless is knowing what you want and setting an action plan. So, 43 things can help me with that… and the goals I set will become steps in my action plan. I am overcoming one fear, just by writing all this down. Now to keep going.

I feel like a weakling, depending on others to help me with things I should be doing on my own. And I hate it.

I’m going to make this goal my highest priority.

To me this goal encompasses a lot of other sub-goals.

*Finding justice my own way.
*Being comfterble alone and not getting too attatched.
*Train to protect myself: shooting courses @ firing range, self-defence classes (or there’s always karate), keeping fit.
*Speak my mind, even when other’s may not want to hear it.
*Constantly test my comfort zone.
*Take the risks I normally wouldn’t

I’m sure there’s a bunch more I’ll think up later but that’s a good start.

I have a ways to go but I really do feel there’s a hidden part of me that is very powerful.

Death to submission.

with my new #1 goal

fear hold me back anymore. I am not going to let it stop me from doing what I want to do.