not care

Indifference is the key to happiness

or at least help achieve happiness.

I need to do this ASAP.

I’ve been loosing up. letting go of things. I think its a good realease for the most part. Now…I need to start caring about getting my old friends back.

I just care too much about too many stupid things. That’s gotta stop. It’ll feel so much more better

ok so all the bullshit i have gone through i want to forget! i just want o be in a place were no one knows who i am and wonders why i smile so much! i want to be happy with the one i love and not worry about all the mistakes i have done or think about the past and people that would love to see me fail in love and life. I want to be able to say this is who i am and i will always be ok with the decisions that i made!

i picked up a lot of overtime at work so that i would be too busy to sit aroudn and think about the results. i mean overtine from hearing sbout the interview to going, then a good batch from after the interview to the results. i even overshot it. after i got in i was soo busy i couldnt even go celebrate because i had another week worth of overtime to do. i think this is a good goal for anyone on the edge .

i interviewed for med school on Monday and i definitely don’t want to think about this too much. i have 3 weeks until the results are back so i signed up for hella over time at work…at least that way i wont be worrying myself into an oblivion.

only 2 things can happen they either let me in or “dont have room in the Class.” if its the latter it will be a test of the “Not flipping out?” goal. i do have more faith than fear but the best resolution between wildly optimistic and overly practical is to just not care. so yeh… i dont care

I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHAT U THINK!!!! ANY OF U!!! THIZ FEELS SO MUCH BETTER THAN BEING AFRAID. THINKING “WHAT IF U DONT LIKE ME??” I KNO NOW SOME PPLZ WILL HATE MY AZZ AND SOME PPL WILL LUV THA SHIT OUTTA ME…..SO U KNO WHAT FUCK IT

but just not care about all those little fckin things that just mean something in my head.

WHY DO I CARE SOOO MUCH ABOUT WAT PPLZ THINK ABOUT ME…. I JUST DONT WANNA GIVE A FUCK ANY MORE!!!!!!!! FUCK EVERYBODY ELSE…ITZ ME AGAINST THE WORLD…DONT LIKE ME….DONT CARE

I care way to much somtimes…...most of the time its not worth it…