be open to love

i can see myself more open to love now. i’m loving myself more and more each day and that makes me destroy the wall i’ve built around my heart for such a long time. i’m happy.

i think i’m openning myself a bit more now. and it’s been good. as soon as i started to really love myself and convince myself that i do deserve to be happy, no matter what happened in the past i’ve started to really see things differently. i’m dating again and finding it a lot more fun than it never was and i think i’m starting to fall in love with someone. i don’t know, we’ll see.

and it’s not being easy, i must say. this is one of the biggest fears i must face and i’m really focusing on it as a priority in my life. i’m not hoping or expecting to get into a serious relationship, but just open myself for any kind of relationship. convince myself that taking risks is better than living a safe and boring life.
so this is what i’m gonna keep in mind:

• be more confident and fierce
• feel more like a woman, sexy and in control of my life
• believe that i deserve to be happy
• have more fun and not pressure myself into a relationship

has changed my life. I’ve allowed love into my life and continue to open the aperture of my heart a little more, bit by bit. I want to be wide open to receive all that love has to give, taking in all of its light. It still scares me sometimes, but, all in all, I would be more afraid not to let love enter, for the regret of what would have been missed in this life if I had remained stubborn and closed. Today I am more open to love than I was yesterday. And so the progression continues.

I have joined up to an internet dating site and have one date lined up with a man who seems nice. Well, we’ll see how it goes. It is progress. Can’t shake off the feeling that I am dishonouring “the one” who I like. but he doesn’t like me and never will so I hope those feelings will fade.

heart is open,
mind is open,
I am vulnerable and willing,
to be completely infused with this love.

Although it has frightened me a few times,
Even shut me down for a few days of my life,
I have not regretted,
releasing every point of resistance.

The fight has gone,
To leave room for the energy
it takes for discovery….
the discovery of who we are together.

Like caving, we climb through
the recesses of each others’
minds and hearts.
It is the most amazing expedition.

I have been thinking…I AM open to love, but completely with the wrong person. I need to really get over this before I can be ready for a new man. But maybe a few dates would shake off the old feelings? It’s driving me mad! Argh.

I keep joining up and filling in my profile, and as soon as there’s any interest I run a mile. I really am not open to love at the moment, and I need to learn how to become open to it.

whom I believe to be the most amazing man alive, I would be a fool not to be open to love.

I now have a gorgeous boyfriend, who has taught me how to be open to love… I love him more than I thought possible! He is so sweet, caring, and over the last 8 months since getting together, has become my best friend. It helps that he tells me each day that he loves me! If you are willing to open your heart to someone, the rewards are endless.