post letters here that i would never send

Please don’t bring too many presents to my house this year. I want to establish a Christmas that’s meaningful, not materialistic. Maybe one or two small gifts from hubby, but nothing electronic or expensive. But we’ll keep our tradition of writing and placing letters to one another up in the tree :) I see all my friends obsessing over budgets and shopping lists and Black Friday, and I don’t want any part of that. Please keep my heart simple and pure this Christmas, if you can. All I want is snow, lights on the tree, a yummy meal, and hubby and Piper. Don’t let me get caught up in store ads. Make sure I remember what Christmas is really about, and feel free to remind me if I should be tempted to feel sorry for myself when all my friends get GPS systems and huge televisions, okay? Because as you know, Santa, I need nothing. I want for nothing.

Love,
L

^{p.s.: I’ll be bringing Piper to meet you sometime this Christmas season. Hubby and I see you in the mall every year, and this year we finally have a little person in our home. She’s dying to meet you. See you in a month or so!}

I hope you’re reading, since i don’t how else am i going to reach you

I wish you the best, becuase you’re the most amazing person ever! with a gorgeous spirit..

Love you so much, and miss you
Narcissa

I had to leave him a note when I returned his coat, but all I said was “thanks, see you later”... This is what I might have said if I’d had half an hour (and balls).

Dear Mike,
By now, you are surely aware that what happened between us remains my single regret. You have surely noticed how hard I try to glitter when you slouch into the picture, and how dim I go with exhaustion and disappointment when you slouch out. Surely, tiny bluebirds of enlightenment have whispered in your ear as you slept about how bored and lonely and insecure I am lately. Surely, surely, surely. Or am I taking too much for granted? Do you just have wicked timing?
This is always the question with you- do I quietly send up little flags of gratitude to God for the time I get with you, or tell you, once and for all, to slouch the hell out of my life and stop giving me these little crumbs of reminding?
Fuck you, Michael, with all your ethics and all your adulthood and, above all, fuck this loneliness that makes your inscrutability sting.

You just can’t deal with it, can you?
when you disrespected me last week, I haven’t given it much thought
you know why?
becuase I thought three years of friendship were worth more than that
and you come do the same thing again! with me standing next to you
remember that I didn’t behave according to what happened last week
but from now on, I promise myself I will.
I wont be the same, and it’s not for your best intrest!

good luck, now that your inner self must walk in a separate paths.
I have to eleminate all negative factors

(or should I call you K, by the nickname we shared?)

I haven’t thought of you in so long, and than, today, while I was doing something completely unrelated, you popped into my head.

I want to say I am sorry.
So so so sorry.
And so amazed that you managed to pull it off, and with your best friend, me, turning her back on you.
I truly am sorry.
I was selfish, cold, wallowing in self pity…all the things I never ever thought I could be. I let you down…and I’m sorry. I thought I knew everything, where in fact I was just hunted by my own demons.

_{Damn, this is hard, it was so much more comfortable going on believing you were the screwed up one.}

I remember that time when you came back from Italy and we met for coffee and hugged so tight for so long, and you cried a bit, and there was that sweet old lady who said our hug had just made her day…but I had to play it cool.

I miss talking to you. I miss seeing your smiling face. I miss our laughs, I miss them painfully. I miss your room (probably you don’t live there any more), I miss going for a rainy walk with you, I miss our telephone conversations that went on for hours, I miss how you always had time for me. I miss how you could walk kilometers upon kilometers with me and never be tired. I miss your handwriting.
You were my friend, my companion, my shield, my sister.

But at the same time you were a burden to me.
You wanted so much more than I was able to give you. You wanted all of me, and, back then, I didn’t know how to set boundaries, I didn’t know what all of me was, I didn’t know how to let people in.
Writing this, I feel sorry for both of us.

I could go on and on, but what I wanted to say most of all is that I think you are an amazing woman, you rocked all your trials and tribulations, and you had virtually nothing to fall back on.
I hope you are happy – with him or with any other guy, I just hope you are happy and respected.

If I ever see you again, I will tell you all this, you deserve it.

Love,
K.

i dont really know you
but recently i have been growing so much closer to you
i can see yo are going through a really tough time
and i am sorry
i havent been through all of it
but some i have
so i know
so im so sorry
you have friends who care for you and are here for you
including me
if you’l have me
you will survive this
trust me
god bless
you overcome this you’ll see
and i love you
ness
xxxxxx

how do you do it?
seriously
you are amazing!
you have changed my life so much in such a short space of time
it feels as though ive known you my whole life
only last year i would look at you and dream about talking to you
because you are so incredible
everyone you speak to
you touch their lives in a way
i cant even explain
i love you
i have never met anyone..who knows you..you doesnt
you are the most selfless, kind, funniest guys ive have ever known
i love you
i feel so blessed to even have you in my life
let alone to be your friend
and have you as one of mine
i love you
thank you
im speachless
what else can i say
god bless, i love you. and thank you doesnt some it up enough
but that will have to do
I swear my heart will explode one of these times
never stop being who you are
i love you so much
i truley care so much for you its unreal
thank you for everything you have ever done
for me or anyone else you have touched
thank you
i love you
ness
xxxxx

seriously ! are you kidding me ????
you told me you adore me and after a week you are with another girl ??
go burn in hell , LIAR

i just want to tell you that i had a crush on you when we were in high school.
i still like you ..

Don’t even think for a second that I don’t care.