figure out what I really want to do with my life

Can’t decide between having to make sacrifices financially to pursue my degree (also gives me a 2-year break from work which is starting to get monotonous) so that I can have better career prospects or to continue at my job and start planning for kids (which I love). I dun intend to change my job because it gives me the freedom and financial ability to pursue my interest in music. I have plans to teach music when I retire.

I am a 30 year old mom of 3 and wife. I recently went back to school and it was like a whole new world was opened up to me. New music, new things I enjoy such as, photography, going to plays, etc.. I need more out of my life, but is my life to set into place to care about what I want? Not so sure about my marriage either, not sure where to go with that one. I would love comments!

Balance and joy

I am trying to find my dreams back.

colleges:

UM-Twin cities
UW-Madison

careers:

child psychologist/counselor
photographer

I’ve been out of Highschool for 2 years now. Gone through community college to get an associates degree in liberal arts. My first year I still lived in my small hometown, but had moved out of my parents. my second year I moved 4 hrs away from home to finish school and work. I’ve been able to get a really great job, especially for someone my age. But I just don’t feel like im happy enough. I often find myself wanting to move back home, although I wonder if it is just me missing my “old” friends from Highschool whom I get to see when I’m home. Other than that I don’t see what is there for me besides my friends, and of course my family. I’m really lost in emotions of where I want to go and what I want to do with my life. Where I am at now my life consists of working all day, hitting the gym afterwards, then home to go to bed then start the same day over again. I’m 20 but I feel like im living the life of a 35 yr old.

right now, im in the point of my life wherein i have to start making choices… choices that could affect my future,.. it is very tough coz i actually dont have any idea as to what it is that i want most,.. im in the dark, struggling to find my way… the right way for me,.. i might have to make a few mistakes in order to know where my heart lies,.. what it is that makes me happy and what the future holds for me,.. it may take me a while but i know i’ll get there,.. and im working my ass off for it now,..

well i’ve figured it out, but the road i have to walk right now because of circumstances largely beyond my control depresses me. :( i don’t want to keep seeing this on my list because it just keeps reminding me of all of my failed dreams… :(

I have to give up since I’m no longer planning things after a years time. I can’t really decide what I want to do with my life, and maybe I’m not even supposed to know right now… maybe I’m supposed to be confused and it’ll come to me in the most odd moment, like when I’m in the shower or something… that would be a great story to tell…

I’m kind of breaking down or something… I’m seriously thinking of throwing the whole college thing down the drain (at least for the summer…) and heading somewhere hot and begging someone to let me work at a marina or something. Outside, sunshine, water… what more could I want?

I may never figure out what I want to do with my life… nothing realistic anyway… I’m not sure it’s possible…