Run away for the day

I actually did this without planning it. I told my family I was going to the bank and I spent the day at the beach.
That was totally cool. Thank God I didn’t have a cell phone then. LOL

Sorta’ did this today, except that I didn’t go anywhere just locked myself up in the room, really just making sure the fever is truly gone before I can say that my room is contagious free. I have really enjoyed myself today, listening to music, reading, talking on the phone, and catching up with a great friend.

No, not really running away, like I want, but was so needed…ahhh

Now to figure out what I will do on my ‘special’ day…I can’t wait, and spring is coming – the ocean isn’t too terribly far…then again neither is a flight to San Francisco…hmmm

and in great need of time to myself. my days are non stop, with sick kids, emergency room visits, MRI for myself, weekend basketball games, family visits, cooking, cleaning,car in the shop working so damn hard that I don’t even have time to go to the restroom during the day. F calls me during the day to ask me if I’ve gone to the restroom, he keeps telling me I’m going to end up with a serious bladder problem…pissing on myself uncontrollably, great!, that’s all I need..lol

I get so happy when the weekend comes, but to no avail of actually feeling rested. I have to sneak away to get on here, then when I do someone comes knocking on my door….”Mommy, can I come in”. argh!...”Sure, baby come on in”.
I’m sitting here thinking about adding a new goal like this one and as I’m sitting here trying to figure out what it is that I would like for it to say. My daughter who is sitting behind me watching t.v. calls me “Mommy”...deep breath..yes, sweetie
::she pauses:: and I’m thinking, what now?? then she replies. “I love you”...”I love you too, baby”...how sweet is that!

and yes, I do love them and will never take them for granted, but dammit I’m tired and I truly need some time to myself. I don’t want to discuss bills, kids grades, how J needs to hustle and be more aggressive in the game, what are we doing for dinner, we need to pay this today, did she get her medicine, M’s teacher called about his grades, the girls drive from this time to this time, so on and so on and so on…I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!