Do something for myself

I decided to travel on my own and have a trip entirely to myself. It was very well worth it and I was able to see a new part of the world.

I’m worth it. I remind myself that I am worth it…whatever “it” is. Nail polish, a walk, whatever…I’m worth it and more!

I dyed my hair black and bought some nail polish. I also stopped biting my nails, so that I can use said nail polish.

I started a new weight management system along with exercising. I deserve to treat my body well. I need to do it for myself.

Most people would think this is such a blessing (don’t get me wrong it is), but I feel so dependent and look forward to discovering something that holds my interest, that I can feel good about, and that I can feel like I am doing something better for mankind.

I need to figure out a hobby that I really love, or how I can go back to school.

I’m in a dilemma since I have free time right now, yet I am not prepared for children… once the kids come I know doing things for myself (such as furthering my education) will be difficult. I don’t speak enough German to go to grad school here.

And so I take German and I try… but I feel like my interest plateaus off in everything I do. Maybe I fear being over involved in one thing for the fear I will miss out on something else.

Mike is always telling me I need to do for myself, that I don’t treat myself enough to things I want. I think I might buy a new perfume I’ve been eyeing or maybe some new summer clothes.

I want to go to college in Austalia. That is my extension goal off of this one.