be a kinder person

be a kinder person by being more understanding, more patient, a better listnener, nicer, more open, better friend, less judgemental, and taking more time for family and friends.

...think the occasional mean thing
...say something mean now and then
...judge too soon

I just want to be a little more compassionate.

My parents were married very young and as a result they did not see the nastiness the world has shown me and, conversely, they had to deal with some big things young. They were married in 1961 and they taught me that a very important trait is kindness.

I fought it a bit but it was ingrained and now at 43 I find myself at a loss for the line between self preservation and kindness. I find when I let myself go and am very kind I am sometimes hurt, especially in my photography business. When I am stern and less kind I regret not giving even though it would ruin my business.

Perhaps my wish is not to be more kind but to know when to be kind, when not to be hurt by ingratitude and how to be strong enough to realize that I may never know how to balance it all.

I think that I have succeeded in making myself more aware that I can be a kinder person, so I am marking this as done. This is an ongoing thing, though.

This is a great goal

I’d rather be known as a selfless lover
Than a wealthy or powerful egotist.

But it makes me feel better. I’ve been feeling down, but I just used all of my cheers to encourage other people – well, cheer them on at any rate. I don’t know that it will matter to them, but it made me feel better to do it and to think of them trying to achieve their goals rather than my own problems.

Or in an awkward situation? I received a “cheer” with a comment that I am a lazy ass. I responded by blocking the person and with a comment of my own that wasn’t terribly nice, though not as rude as it could have been. I realized that I shouldn’t have responded at all and deleted the goal, along with the comments. Still, I shouldn’t have responded the way I did in the heat of the moment. Sigh. I thought I was doing better than that. I want to be able to set a good example for my child.

I am trying to be a kinder, gentler person. I am. Really. Some days it is simply harder than others.

Sigh. I really need to work on this.