Stop living in fear

I AM FREE. I AM LOVED and I AM SAFE! Everyday I learn more and more about domestic violence though books, web groups, art therapy, group therapy and counseling. Every bit of what I learn makes me that much stronger.

I joined a domestic violence survivors group with about 20 other women.

I doing the R. Lundy Bancroft book I was given in counseling. I’m going to group therapy tommorow. I’ve researched until i fell asleep at my desk. I will overcome my fears and LIVE MY LIFE!

Today I have begun doing a workbook my counselor gave me. Im ecstatic about becoming a survivor and not a victim.

I wnt to court today for the umteenth time and I go to counseling tommorow again. Its a start.

I’m a very private person in most repects and the idea of starting a blog was scary. Did I really want to “reveal” myself in such a public way? Well, I took a leap of faith and just did it. While it might seem like a small thing to some, it took a lot of courage for me to not only sign up, but also write and publish the first post. Yay me!

I live my life with a lot of anxiety and fear. I don’t really know why, but thanks to a crazy friend I have who never lets me give into it I find myself constantly confronting my fears and overcoming them. You will be amazed what you can do when you have someone there to give you a push. I am still living my life trying to not give in to my fear and anxiety. Here are some tips that help me -http://blog.dalecarnegie.com/tipsforsuccess/20-tips-on-overcoming-fear/

I dont know what to do, every morning when my husband leaves for work. I find myself not being able to sleep. I hear noises and often times scare myself so much I just get up rather than try to sleep. The two times I have been able to fall back asleep I have had intense nightmares until I wake up, and of those two times I was only asleep for about a half hour. I dont know how to not be scared when he leaves. I turn all the lights on lock the dead bolt, and still I cannot manage to make myself go back to sleep. This makes me soooo angry cause I feel like people are winning and taking over my life. ANY ADVICE????

for some strange reason believe I’m scared like a small tiny mouse. Here I’m a grown man and I’m thinking tremble like a puppy about stupid stuff. Why can’t I walk and talk like I live to the fullest? My arms when I walk are stiff. I “feel” the stiffness of fear in how I carry myself around others. Fear is disabling me from feeling loose and comfortable. I feel as if I can’t simply be myself. yuck.

of people hurting me
of myself, of my needs, of my dreams
of accomplishing things
of making the most of what I have
of reaching out to others
of loneliness
of being rejected once more
of meeting inadequate people once more
of losing my family
of falling ill
of having an accident
of facing people
of being happy
of taking care of myself
of deeming my life important to me
of truly living
of not waiting day by day for death to come

These are the fears haunting me. These are the fears I have to overcome.