write a poem a day for a month

He left a mark upon my pillowcase
An indellible stain of where his head rested
That he was here

He left a scull-sized stamp
Like the shadow of the deep impression from his giant noggin
Was so fixed it could never come out

He left a patch of scalp grease
The kind textile companies should use in all of their dye vats
Because no matter how many times I wash the linens,
His big stupid head stares back at me
Like he marked his territory
Left a big oily calling card
Leaked all of his half-baked, deep-fried dreams
Onto our pillows and then just dissolved into a yellow circular imprint of where he used to be, used to love me

He left a mark upon my heart
That no amount of tears has yet to wash away…

Stella’s Life

I met this guy I didn’t like
I knew instantly he wasn’t the one
but time was passing by
and it was too long without someone

So we went out a couple of times
things happened sort of fast
he was ready to settle
and I was ready to quit the waiting

So I hid the emptiness in me
let it pour out through cuts in my skin
as he and me walked to the altar
he saw in me his lucky break
I saw in him my childhood nightmare

And the loveless marriage kept going on
We had the lamest most boring intercourse
at some point I had a child,
not even that brought us back to life

He had to work late every day
and I was glad I didn’t have to see his face
My child needs were too demanding
and I was just so so so tired

I thought about having an affair
but I didn’t have the energy to get out there
for my own child I couldn’t care
so I just laid him in his crib
swore him that if I had been alive
to him I would have given my heart

And then I went into the bathroom
and didn’t lock the door
Slit my wrists as hard and as deep
I fell my strenghts get out of me
and as the pain stopped
my body tumbled down to the floor

and I wasn’t scared
I felt no regret
I was happy that this was the end

Tainted has been the grieving soul
by a timeless set of disasters
Stay close as the hopes fade,
Remain when the rest have left
This is our courage’s test
hold me, we must not fail

Reason was born in its place
and thoughts now make more sense
you raped the purest heart
stole the warmth inside,
and left the cold survive

You traumatized the child,
raised her to do harm
destroyed by the loudest silence
soulless timeless noise,
a tear has slip out and dropped

Darkness has fallen so strong,
blinded by the dryest stare
Stay with me through the end,
calm your coward, evil heart
It must stop beating tonight
hell has open its doors
it’s time for us to go home