be a better pagan

my spiritual inclinations often get pushed to the side by life’s distractions, i.e. relationships, alcohol binges, meaningless work, etc… while i value a good relationship, the other things i can do without. every year around samhain there is a strong stirring within me. i feel an irresistible desire to be doing something spiritual at this time. in years past these feelings would usually be drowned out with alcohol, but it is time to move on and live my life in a manner that is true to myself. i began tonight by communing with nature outside in the moonlight. it was very personal and unscripted and it felt quite moving. i would like to continue and evolve this little ritual as it was good in my soul. i also believe that networking and having fellowship with other pagans is important yet challenging as they tend to be rare, eccentric, and just plain hard to find!

I have been so busy lately that I have taken little time for myself and little time for my own faith. I need to get my balance back.

Well we moved to Texas 10 and half months ago, we left a growing coven up in Washington. One way for me to be a better pagan is to find other pagans in my area. I hope to began teaching again. I enjoying helping people, and teaching them what I was taught in the old ways. I know that I am very proud of all the people I have trained before.

We all know that centuries ago, in Britian, Christianity took over from paganism as the major religion, (i think the romans brought it over when they invaded) well for a while I’ve been wondering… what would the world be like if that never happened…? i mean, after that happened, society and the government started to develop… technology began to advance… and I was wondering, what would the world be like if that all developed whilst paganism was still the major religion? personally I think the world would be a much better place… and maybe even this global warming thing wouldnt exist… technology and society would develop in a way that works with nature… instead of chopping it all down and pouring concrete all over it… we might even have slightly different technology than we do now… new and interesting things, that we never would have thought of today… anyhoo, the world would be less… er… evil and more friendly to nature… ^^

Its brought me closer to nature and made me an over all better person…

Ive read everything there is to know about paganism… its history, its meaning… and I have been living everyday as a pagan should…

Blessed Be Everyone!!

P.S: Sorry i havnt actually been posting anything, I havnt been on my computer much…

Happy Beltane everyone!

This past Saturday I attended a wonderful Beltane Tea! I was a bit nervous to go, only because I have never officially come out to my family and so I still sort of have a tendency to hide my beliefs and practices. But I went anyway, and it was a ton of fun. We had a discussion about Beltane (all about the symbols, the history, what the day is about, etc) and drank lovely cups of tea and then made a huge pot of Beltane incense (all botanical). I’ve been reading about Beltane on my own since then. It’s a beautiful Sabbat. I’d love to hold a handfasting on Beltane one year.

i have been reading the politics of women’s spirituality: essays on the rise of spiritual power within the feminist movement and i have been filled with rage, silenced in awe, moved to tears, and made giddy with excitement and hope as i read my way through… and all of a sudden i am recognizing the deep entanglement of my feminist and pagan roots, and how they lean one upon the other, and influence and inspire each other. it has been difficult reading of the nine million women murdered in the Burning Times, but liberating to read of all the millions of women (and people) around the world who are reclaiming a pagan-inspired existence, one which honours a Goddess, and a deeper connection to the Earth which includes pagan/feminist rituals and magick. i feel very renewed in my faith, and as though this connection between my feminism and paganism (which seems so obvious to me now) is something to explore, to learn from and share. i’m always embarking on some new journey…

I’ve been pagan for about 5 years now, but lately I have been letting life, work and college come before my beliefs and I know its taking a toll on me. Its because of that that I picked up the book Wicca: A Year and a Day off my shelf. I’m not really Wiccan, I considering myself more along the lines of a cross between a druid and a kicthen witch, but I liked the fact that it was something simple I could do every day to help me reconnect with that part of who I am—besides just because I’m not really in the wiccan branch of paganism, doesn’t mean I can’t learn something from them :)

Currently on day 14 of my pratice—many more to go, but I’m feeling more renewed already.

Postmodern Magic by Patrick Dunn. Saw it in the library, where I’ve seen in several times before, and decided to finally give it a go. He has a unique take on the whole magical paradigm which appeals to my way of thinking, and some experiments that might well be worth a try. Plus, he has a cool blog…

http://pomomagic.nfshost.com/?page_id=64

(I know booklarnin’ isn’t everything, but it can be a useful exercise in mindstretching.)

I found a book for the new BoS and am thinking already of how I want to plan this out. Which is forcing me to ask myself what my beliefs and views are right now. Which is no bad thing, at any time.

In the words of Paul Mitchell

“I’m a far better pagan, when I am pissed”

http://paul.makingithappen.co.uk/