find my goal in life

Had a good week, worked a lot on an actionplan. With a little help from other people I’ve put the different paths to take on paper, now it’s a matter of working them out, see which way I want to go, see what would work, what would’t. (Writing in down makes me able to organise my thoughts.) It could be a little bureau of my own for graphic design, photography, writing… That way I get to put my creativity into work. And besides that still focus on being an artist as well.
To be continued (as always)!

I might just be getting closer… listening to my feelings for once, and not to my brain (which was taught to say ‘very nice if you want to paint and make music and make photos, but just get a job and make some money’). I don’t want to ignore my heart anymore, which is just screaming out ‘I WANT TO MAKE BEAUTIFUL THINGS!’, a heart which just wants to perform, be an artist, live freely and do my own thing, and do many beautiful and energizing things. I hate working at an office, I am totally not designed to sit at a desk all day. I need to be out and about, do what I want, meet people, do interesting things. I want to be an artist (painter/photographer and maybe other things), and the funny thing is: other people already believe in me, but now it’s time to start believing in myself and screw my brain (and parents!) which says that it’s best to just have a job and a stable income.
So I’m going to make a sort of actionplan, figure out what the steps are I should take (like work parttime?) to go more towards being a photographer/painter and maybe do some more with music and theatre as well. And writing would be nice too.
We’ll see how this goal develops. But I’m feeling confident I’m moving in the right direction.

I don’t know if I will ever find my goal in life, but at least I can’t say I’m not working on trying to find it. A part of working on it is just listening to people and getting inspired. Listening to what other people do, and trying to feel what it does inside me when I listen. Do I get excited and think ‘oh that would be nice!’ or do I feel nothing, so that I know that that’s not the way for me?
It’s just another part of the process, which hopefully one day reach an end. I realized today that I might never really have been someone with concrete goals in life. Plenty of dreams, oh yeah, dreams of being a musician, in a band, an actress, a writer, but were they really goals? I don’t know. They might have been until people (like parents, brothers) told me to wake up and get a real job… But once in a while I remind them that for some people, those things ARE jobs. So maybe I’ve been focussing too much on listening to my parents and kept my dreams ‘dreams’ instead of focussing on how to turn these dreams into reality, into… jobs…

To help myself find my goal as far as work is concerned (having a bit of a motivation-problem at the moment), I’m taking a three-day course in finding out what I want, what I can do, etc. Should be interesting, and hopefully helps me in moving forward instead of dragging myself to work and asking myself ‘what else should or could I do?’.
Once I’ve solved the work-issue, I might get some inner peace and find it easier to concentrate on finding my goal in life. Might be something to do with arts and life in the countryside. Maybe.

i just decided to find it & stick with it

I feel like I’m slowly moving into the right direction, like the path is unfolding before my eyes, but I can’t see what’s at the end of it. Patience, time, eventually everything will fall into place, I’m convinced of that.

Just sailing around life like a kite without string..
Want to be able to take control of my destiny, instead of being tossed around by it.
So, I have taken the first step of deciding to want to have a GOAL.
Now all I have to do is to find something I would take pride in achieving and would love to put my hear, soul and mind in..

Wish me luck!

and i’m not so sure if people really got a goal in life, maybe we should just do the best every single day.