tell him how I feel

I’ve liked this one guy for almost 2 years. The first time I saw him..I had a crush on him. I found out he had a girlfriend and i backed away. We made a connection back in November…and in December started to hang out. I was so afraid…I couldn’t believe he was showing me all this attention. I couldn’t be myself because I had played him up so much that I wanted to be “PERFECT” for him. I couldn’t just be “ME”. And for the past 6 months I have been searching and searching for this “ME”. And although it’s been a transformative period…and I credit it for it…I feel I may have lost him. :(

But, I need to tell him how I feel. I need to tell him that the girl he was with was not me. I need to tell him that I have liked him all along and he never needed to do anything to impress me. He’s helped me find my voice by the pure act of living. And now, I want to live and speak my truth…but I want him too. And I’m so sad over this because I wanted to tell him..and I was going to tell him the next time i saw him. But now I feel he is with someone. I believe their relationship just begun. I’m no homewrecker, and even if I get no where by telling him….I think it will bring peace to me by just letting him know how I feel. Maybe It will help me let him go too…

I have this friend who just fell in love. She wasn’t afraid and told him straight-out. Even when rejected, she never quit. She’s fighting for the man she loves and I’m just amazed by her bravery and strength.

And so. Resolution time.

I never told him, even if I was sure he loved me. I didn’t think it was proper, I was too young, it was too early. “After college, that’s when it becomes OK, when I don’t have school to worry about.”, I told myself.

I’ve been living under the impression that life BEGAN after college. I’ve forgotten I’m living it NOW. He left, discouraged by my “indifference” and what’s worse, I let him go.

Turns out it doesn’t matter if it was just in high school.
Turns out some wounds aren’t healed by time.

I don’t know how I’m going to get in touch with him now.. and I’ve never done anything like this.. But I’ll find him even if it’s too late. Just to tell him.

other than that he rocks my world.
it’s been about a year since we’ve met, but i think the waiting has been great for me. i’ve gotten to know the ins and outs about him, and it only leaves me yearning for more.
absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?

i know this is real. if only i knew his take on things as well.

...and he has the most radiant blue eyes i’ve ever seen

i thought telling him how i feel was telling him that i love him. but now that our relationship is over, i just want to tell him that he hurt me.

I just need to tell you out loud now.

ummm i need to tell dylan tht i need to break up with him but i doo love him and he loes mii to but dating a amius person is rlly hard wht should i dooo plzzz give advice

I’m sure every has had that guy. the one that you love so much that you hate him for it. I barely even know him, honestly, but he’s got a part of my heart and I can’t seem to find any words to express that to him.

I just want to tell him once how I feel, like actually say it out loud to him. He has to know already. But I’m so afraid that he doesn’t feel the same way. I think he does, his actions say as much, but one of us has to be the first to say it, and I don’t know how much longer I can hold it in. I try to act like I don’t care, but I do so much.

I really wish I could tell my ex how I feel about him. But its been 10 months. A long 10 messd up months. Hes had another g/f already and idk if i can deal with liking him anymore. Its been a messy breakup and everythings been complicated. well if you want to talk more send me an i-m sometime.

S/n: Cammimarie101

i dont know how to tell hiim or her how i feel