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I cannot believe it! I had my third interview session yesterday and it was amazing. I was totally relaxed while I was giving my presentation because I had the other job offer in the back hand. I answered the questions the best way I could and today I got three excited emails from the leader of the group – they want me. =) cool. I sended out applications for months and my first two I sended to the university – bingo. And I heard that the bosses of the two groups where I can start to work had a little fight about who was sending me the job offer first =) And yesterday on the way home I decided very quickly I want to work in the first group – the people are more normal and open. (the work is mostly the same so I could decide because of my gut feeling.) But now I have the feeling thats so unreal – I’ll go out for a beer this will help =) And I forgot to say my present boss said for the first time after 6 years that “his heart is bleeding” because I’m leaving the group. and that he is very proud of me. Amazing, he didn’t say anything like this during the last years. What a day. wow!
Now I’m hoping everything is going well with the contract and everything. Brrr. tomorrow I have to write this “I’m sorry – I don’t want this job” email to the other group. Do you have any ideas which sentence to use to give it a polite style? brrr.

But cool =) =) =) I got a new job (hopefully) fantastic! What a amazing day!

I can’t believe it – I really have a run. On Thursday I got a phone call from the head of another group where I sended my application to a month ago. puh. So I will have another interview next Tuesday. And again I have to give a talk, but I’m not that affraid of it – I use the same one I gave two weeks ago in the other group. Now I have two job possibilities =) the topics of both research groups are not the same but I would do in both labs the same stuff. So I can put my eye on the other circumstances. The one thing what bothers me in the “first” group is that are two couples. This can be tricky to handle with. What would you do? Would you go in a small new group where you are probably the person who knows more about the topic as the leader does? Hmm. This can be a chance or only complicated. The positive thing is there is more flexibility as an established group. Ohoho, and thats happens to me! – I’m a balance. Making decisions is so hard for me. Okay – more about it on Tuesday =)

I already wrote about my first interview at the beginning of the week, did I? it was a success and on Thursday I got an email that really would like to work with me. Great. There are some black spots but I hope I can live with that. The wifes of both bosses, the smaller and the bigger leader of the group, are working in the same research group. Not good. And the subject of my work will not be easy to handle. And I have to move there. Its 200 km awaa from my hometown, puhpuh. As result of that I can see my friends only on the weekends. And for my mother this will not be easy, too. but, but… I don’t think I do have so many choices. Stay in my old lab and wait till my contract is finished and get unemployed? no. good aspects. I can decorate my new appartment, a friend of mine is already living there, that makes it easier and I can create myself new, because nobody knows me there. arrgghh. I’m not very enthusiastic about it… This was very good to stay calm during the interview. And I negotiated some really good conditions because I didn’t was excited to get the job =) cool. And it helps me to finish my other goal “have a total dirfferent live…” =)
The second interview was a success, too. But at the moment they don’t have enough money to take me. Maybe this will be something for my later future.

I had my first interview on Tuesday and it was really good. Actually I didn’t really want to go there but it turns out – its a nice group. The boss is friendly. Its a small research group and they told me they really would need my knowledge, wow. Today they send me an email, they decided they want me. huuuuu, now I have to make a decision. When I get this job I have to leave my hometown and start new. I cannot see my friends during the week anymore and my boyfriend only on weekends. I have to learn so much and neew stuff. Thats both frighting and interessting. But on the hand I don’t have a real choice: I cannot and don’t want to stay in my old laboratory. Today is my second interview and I was hanging my hopes on this one. I wrote it is an institut from tha army and I thought they would do very interesting research there. But I read in the internet that especially this institut can not do any good research because they don’t have good people. And a researcher should think about it twice if he start to work there. Sh… hmm, the good thing is that I can go there today very relaxed with a possible job in the back hand.
I have to send an answer to the people of the first interview. What do you think is a appropiate time to say I will think about it? a week?
Did I say my sign is the balance, always swinging between the possibilities…

Unbelievable! I’m sending out applications for months now without any success. But now I got two interviews for next week – wow! The first one is on Tuesday. unfortunatly is that for a job which I’m not really want. The paying is lousy and my boss would be younger than me. Now you can ask me why I made a application there. Ach, when you never get answers or only rejections you will get a kind of uncarefull =) The thing is I have to give a presentation there (what I of course hate) and this should be very goog because my present boss want to get a cooperation with this research group (what heard after I got the date for the interview). Terrible! But I have to go because everything else is not professional, arrrrghh! I will feel so free on Tuesday evening =) The second interview will be on Thursday and I’m hanging my hopes on that. It would be in a research institut from the army. The problem is that I’m not in the army of course. But maybe the leader of the institut can take me anyway. I was speaking with him already on the phone (hey!) and will see him on Thursday. This would be so nice to work there. Please keep your fingers crossed for me =)

I should stop sending my applications only to companies which offered a job. Because it didn’t work. I don’t have enough work experience whats makes it really hard to compete with the other candidates. Now I will start to send out two speculative applications. I found some instituts in the internet which are doing very interesting research. It’s not exactly my field but maybe it will work anyway. These instituts are from the army so you don’t find so much information about it in the internet but my mother is knowing a guy which is working there. So I hope I can make the contact about him. wish me luck =)

... I started to send out applications. But I didn’t have success yet… It is so difficult to find THE job I love because of many reasons. At first because of my special interests of course. I want to have a job, in which I’m really interested in and not one, where I have to go only for the money. Yes – thats another point, the money. The last 14 years I was a student or a PhD student, had two jobs and not enough money. Now I want to be paid for my work. And I want to stay in my home town, another critical point. The last reason, whats make my looking for a job “interesting” is of course the financial crisis. A lot of smaller companies don’t know anything about their future, not the right time to look for new staff. So I ‘ll wait a little bit longer, hoping my boss will extend my contract again this summer =)