(What is RSS?)not doing this. I need to read a self-help book about expressing your feelings or something. I feel like I don’t know how to do this. Every time I try, I always end up feeling like an idiot or like I would have been better off to have kept my mouth shut. This is a fine art- know what to say and when to say it. I really suck at it. I’ll have a huge test of my skill at work on Wednesday. Hopefully I will still be employed on Thursday… ;-)
I am still working on being able to express what I am feeling. I don’t know when this became so difficult for me. Whenever I find myself in a situation that is uncomfortable, I chicken out most of the time. I am going to try my best to step out of my comfort zone tomorrow. We’ll see how it goes.
I am still not speaking my mind as I should. I know patience is also a good thing, and I know that talking too much is much worse, but I do need to express myself when appropriate and be more assertive. Assertive has always been tough for me. I can be such a wimp at times.
I broke up with my boyfriend tonight. This was not an easy thing to do, but he was not appreciating me enough. He wasn’t giving me what I needed. He wasn’t able to allow me to be close to him emotionally and I was exhausting myself attepting to fight my way there against his will. I am tired of feeling neglected. I am tired of feeling unappreciated. I deserve more. I am a good girl with lots to offer. I deserve more.
