Allow A Bohemian Lifestyle to Flourish (without apologies)

next year… no high school, no college. bohemian time

what does this goal even mean? i feel like it might be something that im growing closer to, only because im becoming more aware of the things i consume and use. and that probably has nothing to do with bohemian. well this lady at my work, she is such a role model for me. i mean, she could not be more earthy i think. and i love who she is. she just inspires me to do things right, for myself, for others, and for the earth. she is fun though, she loves being girly, but in an ecological-earth mother sort of way. she is showing me how to have a lighter mind.

i just noticed that the goal “get a car” is under this one. that seems sort of contradicting, lol…

to live free of the rigors of conventional rules and practices. it’s how we find ourselves. i never planned to be a bohemian; i simply was born spurning tradition, and in that societal mutiny, discovered a wealth of life.
as ihopewegetlost said, long live those with the ideals of freedom, beauty, truth and love!
and may i add art…..

i feel like i did some of this over the summer… painting, writing, reflecting, doing whatever the heck i wanted. i just simply learned. now that im back in school, i feel so restricted. i dont know how to let my life freely flourish like i wish it would. theres so much “study this” “look like this” “talk like this”. and i dont like it. i guess those things are just part of becoming professional. but i want professionality to be bohemian as well.

I’m moving on campus next semester…gulp

My friend and I are going to share an apartment. All of my money will go into the campus apartment…so i have no choice but sew a good bit of my clothes from scrap cloth.

Food will be scarce (heh) and i WILL NOT BEG. No one likes a moocher! Nope…no one likes that!

The reason I’m taking this chance is because I’ll be close to my art work. No running home 11:00 at night and my parents yelling at me for being home late. I’ll be able to be in my environment with my friend…being there for her and there for my ceramics and design. I love her…erm…my art.

:P this is going to be interesting…

my soul seems clogged… i haven’t even painted in a month… the bills that are filling the mailbox are overwhelming to me and i just know that our tv will be cut off soon… basicly i’ve been too lazy to go to the post to mail the bill… i’ll do it tomorrow i think…

i need a makeover… i’m unhappy with my present look… it doesn’t fully represent who i am as a human… again… because i’m too lazy to put in any effort except for throwing on jeans and a tee shirt and running out the door with my hair still wet…

i sit outside alot these days… early mornings for me have become a norm…

i’m still too uptight to let my lifestyle flourish the way i want it to… i want to be free…

Though I suppose it already has. We have a house always filled with friends and pets and it’s our little family. Bicycles strewn across the front driveway. Potted plants surrounding our back porch. Music being made daily, somehow. It’s a lovely little life we have, and although I do have some higher ambitions to keep my life going until I’m old and grey, I hope to never lose this one. I can imagine being able to live such a life even in ten years when I’m working in a school as a counselor of some sort. That’s very possible I think. The tattoos don’t really even worry me with getting any sort of job. If anything, it forces me to be much more creative in getting dressed. haha. I can have this lifestyle and still continue to grow as a person, intellectually and otherwise.

this one would take a lot of me being comfortable in my own skin.

...that’s a struggle for me.

Life is grand!