be brave and confident

i attand a speach compete, and at first i am very nervous, and i want to make myself more brave by this speach, although i haven’t enter the final, but i am very happy and many friends said that my speach is very good! i’ll try is very important!

i don’t know how to describe my feelings. lots of my friends think i’m a brave and confident girl, but in my heart i don’t think so.
before i do something i always afraid that i can’t do it very well and afraid some unexpected thing happened, but when i finish it i find it’s easier more than i can imagine and i can do it better.
i study Enlish. i know communicating with others is very important, especially with foreigner, i can talk with my Chinese taecher or classmates fluently , but i can’t speak to my foreign teacher like that, i just speak word by word and also add Chinese! my foreign teacher is a beautiful girl who comes from USA and Chinese is her major, so sometimes she gusses what i said!
my Grammer and pronunciation is not very well, i’m working on them
so i afraid of making some mistakes ,i’m afraid i can’t understand what they say or catch their speaking speed, i’m afraid….
so i need brave and open my mouth…

We as human beings have great potential in the various aspects that compose us as individuals.

Our environment taps into these aspects. If we decide to stay in similar environments forever, you may never cultivate the entirety of your existence as a human being.

I have been bit more brave as time has passed. I have decided to never forget what my attributes are, and that I am not perfect. This has allowed me to be brave enough to move on when necessary. To draw a limit on how much involvement I will have in a situation. I trust myself and what I know I have within, rather than allowing my environment take over and possibly running me down.

Accepting one does not always need to be in control, and easing out this need, has helped me out. I am slowly allowing myself the time and space I need to make the decisions, and to not feel beaten when I cannot control an outcome.

I have embraced my imperfections, and in this embrace I am slowly letting go of the strange need to be strong and smart when it is really not necessary. This has led me to feel more confident in the fact that things will always have a way of solving themselves at their pace, I do not need to rush with a solution.

The solutions may be resting within me and slowing down, while accepting myself and my possible vulnerabilities, only bring out my confidence allowing me to be brave.

One cannot be brave and confident when one is not patient. When not patient one loses control not only of the situation, but of one’s entire existence. The stubborn perfectionist inside of me wants to control and does no allow me to understand and feel how good it to just be. To be brave and confident is to just be without having to beat one’s self for not meeting a certain expectation. Problems and worries are normal and should not be allowed to eat us alive, that there is more in that moment in time, and at all times than just worries, ‘problems’, etc..

When in deep emotional caca I let it take over. I forget that life is beautiful and everything turns out okay. Not allowing myself to relax so that I can see this hurts. It is a struggle that manifests itself physically.

Headaches, stomach cramps, thinking that I am weak and die as problems come along. I should not be such a wimp.

All is beauty, all is nothing…nada, mas que una fabricacion de lo que yo ya he vivido…y si sigo clasificando todo bajo las mismas reglas nunca podre ver que nada es dificil…y que si lo es, solo se necesita paciencia (hacia los demas y hacia mi misma)

I am extremely doubtful and get easily scared…even discouraged, when things don’t go too well. I am totally exploring aspects of life and myself at this point to find that source of something that I need to gather the courage and strength to be y tener los cojones para aguantar y superar con mas sutileza…