be more open to receiving love/good things

step forward today..

Looking back at where I was 5 or 10 years ago, I have come a long way with this goal. Much, much less fear & self-sabotage.

giving & receiving are kind of the same thing.

I think I’m pretty intuitive. It happens in different ways: usually it’s a feeling, or a thought involving a picture. Sometimes it’s like hearing a voice. Not an actual voice (my own voice in my head) but the thought doesn’t originate with me. Sometimes it doesn’t even make sense to me.

That happened the other day. The message was: “Love is just around the corner.” Interesting.

really, truly believing that it’s possible for me.

Good things have happened, even recently.. so yes, of course it is possible for me.

I don’t really fully understand why I have issues with this. I can give. I’m pretty good at it. Receiving is harder for me.

I’ve been thinking about this lately & I realized that by me not fully receiving a gift – it is taking something away from the gift itself & the person who is giving the gift. My biggest regrets in life are based in this.

I think it has something to do with deep issues of self worth & my even deeper issues with God. Actually, rejecting myself is really the same as rejecting God. My relationship with “Self” and my relationship with God are the same.

whoo! Getting deep on 43things..