Depression has always been something I have battled ever since I was a little girl. It is not something I would wish on a worst enemy and it is one of the hardest things to overcome. I can’t explain why it happened to me, except that it really is something that just doesn’t fire right in the brain…that is the best explanation I can come up with! But when you are fighting depression, you cannot even begin to understand this…all you know is that you feel so alone and that somedays you just want to die.
Having said all this, it was not easy for me to find my way out. But I did and I’m glad I did. Actually it is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I was a blind soul in the darkest days, but I found the light! It started on the day I made an appointment with a general practitioner in town.
She wasn’t even my family doctor, just a random doctor I found online. I didn’t have health insurance but I had some cash to spare on my health so I figured why not. And at the last minute I didn’t want to go but I’m glad I did. Not only did she sit there and listen, she went into complete detail explaining depression to me. I attended a power point presentation that she gave and I was the only attendee, lol, but maybe that was a good thing cuz I got all the one on one time that I know really helped.
So, equipped with a prescription for an antidepressant and new knowledge and insight on depression, I was ready to fight this battle. It didn’t happen overnight, and I had to go thru 2 antidepressants to find the right one, and then had to add on an extra one after that. Slowly but surely everything around me and inside me started coming back to life.
I am elated to say that I can now function the way I’ve always wanted, and I can do so much more than I ever had the will to. I am content, I am in a good place. Although I will not mark this goal as complete because if I have learned anything through my battle with depression, it is that depression is a real S.O.B and it will sneak into your soul when you least expect it…it won’t go down without a fight. But I will say this: Right now I am winning that fight! 1 day ago