Find my purpose in life

after much sweating, thinkin and thinking and then thinking some more, i figured out my purpose in life thanks to religion. THANK YOU ISLAM : the religion of peace with yourself and the other

And falling behind. I’ve quit more than I’ve started lately and that concerns me. I’ve always had difficulty with the idea of quitting because it’s usually associated with failure. I envy those people that know what they’re supposed to be when they grow up and spend their whole lives doing that. That’s not me. Not yet any way. Maybe never. And I don’t know if that’s a bad thing or not. How do you get any where if you don’t know where you want to go? Do you actually need to get any where or is that a myth? A push tied to the Puritan work ethic that the Pilgrims brought over with them on the Mayflower? I just wonder and that’s part of me isn’t it? The searching part, like Don Quixote, always chasing my windmills…

I want to find what im living for. please. ive made many mistakes. many. and i do regret some, and some made me who i am today who im not proud of. Im a bitch. im mean to ppl at school. im yell at my parents. but i need to leave i want to live with my grandperents for a while.

am i here to fulfil a purpose or are we all the part of a cosmic accident?does our existence mean something or are we all,merely,the byproducts of that cosmic accident?if there’s fate or destiny,then i suppose there shud be a purpose in life too…what is mine?

Occasionally it helps to reevaluate things in your life. Because things change, you have new experiences, you meet new people. So today, I re-took the 43 things quiz:
You are a Self-Knowing Healthy Reinventer
0.53% of the 73949 people who have taken this quiz are like you.

That means about 392 people have done some of the same things I have.

I did a few new things since I last took the quiz. I befriended a stranger, I made a foreign friend. There are other things too but not on this quiz.

It’s good to have a way to reevaluate your life. You usually find a lot of good things you might have otherwise overlooked.

I went 8 years since I last read the Dune Series, the entire length of my relationship with my Ex. It is my favorite series. Was that one of the flaws in our relationship, that I lost important parts of me?

I think my purpose in life involves love, joy & empowerment.

I thought that I wanted to make a full-time living as an artist, but now I’m not so sure. I just don’t know if I have it in me to churn out the kind of volume I would need to produce in order to be successful at this. And I’ve seen enough artists to know that the majority have a difficult time making this a full-time occupation. It can be done, but the artists who seem to be successful are a) able to produce a significant quantity of artwork b) make the right business/marketing decisions c) and have found their artistic voice. Many of the artists that are doing this full-time have to take on commission work – projects that in many cases they have absolutely zero interest in, or teach.

So tired of agonizing every day over what to do! I can’t go on like this; of course, I’ve been saying that for over five years.
there must be some other solution than suicide! There MUST be. But what? I need something to pour myself into. Something I can invest of myself in. But II’ve never done anything; I have no education or experience; and at thrity years old, people are not looking at my ample embodiment and thinking, “Ahh, potential.”
I cling to the depressing but accurate mantra that has sustained me through the last two years: “If you are going to have a dead-end job, this is the one to have.”
As time goes on, my confidence grows more and more feeble, effectively decreasing any chance I have of achieving success, in the unlikely event that I finally find myself able to define it. The only thing i was really good at was writing, but I have lost my voice at some point, and although I have scoured boxes of old treasures in the garage and closet, I cannot find any of my old writings. So, i begin to doubt if they were any good at all. It doesn’t matter anyway; I just thought if I could refresh my memory, I might be able to hear that little voice again. (I think her name is Inspiration.)
Life is not long. Every day is important. It is morning now, and I am already wasting another precious day. Since I go to work at three-thirty, the first part of my day is the part where I get to do whatever I want to further my destiny. The moment is now, and I have no IDEA WHAT TO DO! I can not go on another day like this! So WHAT DO I DO DIFFERENTLY?
Looking for another job is obvious. But the important thing is to choose an industry that I have interest in. I’m willing to go back to school or take a pay cut if it will lead me somewhere. “find a job you love, and never work a day in your life” (Mark Twain)
Oh out of steam . to be continued

Surely my purpose in life can’t be to wake up & go to work everyday feeling like a square peg in a round hole just to pay for my existence?

Or am I just getting old & cynical?

More & more in recent months I’ve felt that my life has a purpose, & that I need to find out what that is. Pretty hard when you’re slogging it out in a call centre 8 hours a day, working shifts, coming home annoyed, drained of energy & fed up. So … on the strength of that feeling I QUIT WORK! Suddenly just like that, no agonising or deliberating. I just did it. For the first time in my life I don’t have to be somewhere everyday at a certain time.

Has that decision given me freedom? Sure but then the challenge became how to make a living to pay the ever mounting bills. I still need to eat, pay the mortgage & feed the dog, the electric company isn’t interested in my epiphany moment only in cold cash.

The lure of working at home creating a web based business was already in my mind so I launched into it wholeheartedly. Wow .. for a smart person who has never found it hard to conquer new things a whole new world of confusion opened up to me. There’s a snake oil salesman at every turn promising a magic formula which will bring the $$$$$$ rolling in (they even show you the photoshopped accounts) :). Bombarding my inbox with hard sell, autogenerated, insincere promises of the real thing. But wait! The next day there’s another launch of another better real thing. I can see why many start to walk the road to internet riches & fall by the wayside in a shattered heap.

I resisted the urge to hammer my credit card & decided to do thorough, logical research. Minisites? Affiliate Marketing? Forex Trading? Blogging to the bank? Create Ebooks? Find gold on the Public Domain? Private Label? I feel as though I’m learning a new language where there are multiple definitions for every word. Hours days & weeks have been used up attempting to find my way through the maze of confusion which is internet business opportunities. I now have so many bookmarks that I could open a bookmark shop.

Finally, I chose a marketer (sorry guru) to follow & signed up for a course. It had reached critical mass & a decision had to be made. Happy days I thought an end to the confusion. Not quite – keywords, long tails, Adsense, SEO, backlinks, click through rates, monetization … here we go again. It’s not just a steep learning curve it’s a bloody mountain with no top in sight – each time I come up another slope & think I’m there the summit’s shifted.

I know I’m not alone as I’ve seen the pleading posts of the struggling newbies chasing the illusive pot of gold being offered on every corner. I’ve read hundreds of long long long pages of landing page copy (what is that about anyway?) is it the psychology of wearing down your opponent with information overload … Hey don’t forget the bonuses, plus the additional bonuses, late bonuses, early bird bonuses & of course the double secret bonuses. No pressure but there’s only 57 left in the world.

All that for an ebook with the magical formula to weight loss? What? Try eating less or better still fighting through the internet jungle, that’ll not only take pounds off but years as well.

OK it’s not that bad (maybe).. but it is a crazy world once you hook into it. But, I’ve done all my keyword & monetizing research, found my product to promote & am intent on learning to start my blog, so will be stepping back onto the roller coaster shortly to master that particular area. But, at least I’m about to commence building my site under the watchful eye of my “guru” who will be walking me through this next step in a video tutorial. Have you noticed there are more gurus on the internet than there are in India right now? True story.

Have I found my purpose in life? I think I’m getting there plus I’ve learned a lot about myself since I began this process. I’ve learned what I’m really genuinely interested in as I’ve been forced to choose an area to become involved in for my business. That in turn has led me to some amazing, interesting & mind expanding people & websites. There is a huge world full of incredible people out there doing even more incredible things. The world is not full of greedy,selfish, violent people – they’re just the politicians ooops I mean the ones the media focus on.

Although my world has shrunk in terms of face to face people contact in not fronting up to the coalmine every day, my mind has expanded exponentially by being exposed to so many new concepts & people’s ideas from all around the globe. That alone has been worth the price of admission.

I’ve learned I’m not a quitter. More importantly as the economy has continued to implode whilst I’ve been on this journey I’ve realised I need to be able to rely on my own skills & initiative to make an income. Not on the corporate world. Already jobs where I used to work have begun shedding & I feel good that I’d started taking steps to own my life. I feel the fear of standing on the edge for sure, but I don’t feel the fear of being pushed. There’s a big difference.